Ruan-ers

I'm happy for one thing today,
but sad for another.
Thank you Ruan-ers for being so united and doing your best for CO once again. I really really appreciate it. 谢谢你们！

However, today unfortunately, was a total waste of time, money and effort. I was coated with three layers of sweat. -.-
Tomorrow will be xiaozu again, to correct the small problems we have; the details and some disturbances we have. Then tuition. I think the weekends I so wanted since last Monday is going to be over too soon!

: Today I was seen in my 狼狈 position with the Ruan people by Esther and Vanessa. ha ha ha. Sshhhh ...

人生如戏，戏如人生。。。

random

(8.25pm)
y.c was angry.

(9.23pm)
okay already(?) i guess i should really control the words that come out of my mouth, or my hand for any case.
one mistake 2-3 years back is traumatising enough for a whole lifetime, dont let it happen again.

tomorrow is kranji performance. heard that temasek have interaction? and simin say someone told her cchmsco main was going. weird.. we're gna duplicate ourselves. haha.
for now, SYF is main priority. the feeling on SCH stage is gonna be so, memorable, just like 2 years ago. i so love that feeling <3

i swear im gonna be more careful with what i say next time. whatever that may bother you, pls just correct me.
pls and thankyous :D

tmr will be another tiring day...

(10.19pm)
Min Ru just told me about her pri 4 tuition kid. when asked for something that she like/want, she says handphone. omg, when i was pri 4, i would be so happy just to take my dad's phone to play the snake game. HAHA. black & white screen. children nowadays are.. unbelievable. lol
that's why juniors batch by batch varies so much. like, we're different from fredrick's batch; we're different from the sec 3s batch; the sec 3s are different from the sec2s now; so on and so forth. 世界变了！the world is changing....
i think i ought to sleep now.. ZzzZz..
goodnight loves<3

sick

(1.15pm)
Sometimes, we must be careful with what we wish for.
i fell sick faking to be sick. dumb.
been vomitting the whole morning, now the vomit rest for a while, thinking whether to go for xiaozu not, i scared tmr dazu i havent recover.
anw i think xiaozu only lasts for 2 hours, will be just tanbo gg through? idk !

ah, imma useless bum
zhiwen faster reply me !
ZzzZz..
so weak now.
help me(?)

somehow i hope that syf will be over faster,
but somehow i want it to be later
contradicting i know, but it's just so tiring worrying about CO and about studies; it made my stomach flu act up again. and it's worst than before. sigh..
but alas! all of us will continue to work hard. (: 这是我们的使命！
so happy to get A1 for both my maths, although it's not very high, but still, it's an acheivement! woots (:

(7.45pm)
oh man, i really can't stand my brother. he's so obnoxious to the whole world and thinks he's no.1 wth. he can quarrel with me for the slightest thing, esp. FOOD. i hope someday he can eat until he's too fat to talk. give me some peace to the ears.
URGH.
i always get scolded because y'know why ? he's fat and he shouts, cry and when he jumps, the whole building shakes. so all in all, im at the disadvantage. within a few years time, he's gna squash me with his fat ass.
having a sister would be much more fun. at least when we fight, it'll be in a more civilised way. and 80% chance that she will not be so fat. ivan dreamt that i have a sister and she looks exactly like me. HAHA. funny :D

staying at home did nothing better to me. all i did was sleep and vomit. ZzzZz.. how interesting.
ilove my blogsong ! <3>
(9.10pm) you've been afraid since i'm 13 going 14
the fears still lies deep beneath the strong outer cover
you become alert of every single movement and thoughts
struggling to hide, afraid to say that you're scared
the layers of fake protection peels slowly 2 years later,
you're fully exposed again
how is it that people could be so open and free you wonder
when there is so much "evil" around
you keep thinking that hope still exists
and god is fair
but everything that lies before you
proves that fairness doesn't go that way

a single act, a small movement adds up to the moments of your life
a single wrong move in life can bring you down
loosen your guards and you'll be eliminated
it's the game of life


i think i was too bored to type this
cheers :D

SYF's reaching

one week of holidays is gone, one week nearer to 3rd April..
scary,
today went school and it was pouring. stopped at the canteen to reply msg, den jamie came give me the three cute pairs of earrings(which is..haiz read on). thankyou !
den rachel came. she dont know where got shelter lol, so walked with her and open my umbrella. at this moment, misfortune befalls. i lost the earrings!!
ahhhh, i was copying homework den i suddenly panicked, so i ran down and tried to find it. den go up dejected. den run down again. but i can't find it ! haiy, sorry sorry.
so i remain in a very sian and sad mood for the rest of the day.
plus the shock people have on their faces when they saw my hair. wow, esp. ziyang. omg ! , he's like.. so.. irritating-.-
hahaha

2 more weeks to SYF. jiayou jiayou !
i want our GWH, getting a gold is not enough, seriously, i still remember 2 years ago. it was... saddening.
so yeps, treasure our time, do our best, and we'll have nothing to fear (:
it had been a really tough time for all of us, esp of course, chairperson zhiwen. i hope all the efforts wont be to waste, we'll end this batch of with a blast. 加油cchmsco!

如果，认识一位新朋友，仍能令你兴奋和快乐，那么你仍然拥有希望。
如果，你仍然能向他人伸出关爱的双手，那么，你仍然拥有希望。
如果，收到一封意料之外的贺卡或者信件，仍能带给你开心的惊讶，那么，你仍然拥有希望。
如果，你拒绝让一份友情走向灭亡，那么，你仍然拥有希望。
如果，你回顾过去，还会微笑，那么，你仍然拥有希望。

如果，你面临糟糕的境地，又被告知你的努力白费了，你还能以“尽管如此，但是。。。”的句式结束的话，你仍然拥有希望。

希望是如此奇妙的东西，他会弯曲，会变形，有时候还会隐藏，但他却很少会被折断。当我们陷入困顿，意欲放弃的时候，使它在支撑着我们，给了我们艰难前行的勇气。
它虽然异常珍贵，却在每个人身上都能找到它。所以在任何时候都别轻易放弃它！

nothing's perfect

I feel like such a lousy senior.
or maybe it's just that things have changed since the last last batch.
but still, i feel lousy.
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If it never happened, i wouldn't have been outcasted for that period of time.
If it never happened, i wouldn't cry in front of them and run into the toilet.
If it never happened, i wouldn't have been sad.
If it never happened, i might have been now a really happy girl.
If it never happened, everything will be different.

If it never happened, i wouldn't have met the most wonderful 2 people i could ever meet.
If it never happened, i wouldn't have understood how the world functions.
If it never happened, i would have never met those few gentlemen.
If it never happened, there'll be no memories of wantonmee shop.
If it never happened, there won't be any memories at all.
If it never happened, i would never have grown up.
If it never happened, i will not be Joane Ling Hui En after all.

we'll never know who will be alongside with us till the end of time.
all we can do is follow blindly where life leads us.
when things become wrong, we find a way to deal with it, and learn from past mistakes.
" no one is perfect, we just have to find the best one "
quoted by. *

happybday !

happy birthday to me (: !

haha. survived from the pre-bday syndromes and had a really sweet bday plus protege! so nice ! wahaha. thankyou people who wished me and those who gave me little wonderful gifts :D

common test is next week, and i haven't started studying. only got now and tmr afternoon to study. dang, CO will take so much of my time. ZzzZz.. no choice.
starting tuition tomorrow, wheeee. i guess im the only stupid person in the world that wants tuition. lol.
anw, few more hours to fredrick's birthday !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST FREDRICK!
THE ONE AND ONLY FATCAT (though he's not fat at all)