today paper 1s were pretty bad.
my eng is deproving, steep drop.
and i dont want it to drop!!
):
i want my ENG back!!!!!!!

studied at airport after that, stayed till 830
did quite a bit of a maths. (been doing it for weeks)
realised i dint bring home e math txtbk, panic
but aye, dont care le, dont think need also
gonna study at airport for the next few days
feel free to drop by and say hi. HA

if i fail my a maths again, im gonna kill myself.
studied so hard for a maths.
but i think my brain will always be like that- dumb
ok, so ytd was quite a moody day
i shall never be like that ever again
SWEAR
as you say, now is studies!
take care.
or i'll hate you for not doing so.

anw, all the best to ppl out there in their exams!
be it EOYs, O lvls or promos.
GOOD LUCK !

i just shitted a pile of black gooey substance.
hell pain.
it made my head hurt a great deal too.

this is a real funny convo with serene's dad
(im speaking like an ultra good girl) :

serene ; fat queen says:hi
JOane> ???? says:hello
serene ; fat queen says:how is yr study?
JOane> ???? says:wait, serene, dont bluff
serene ; fat queen says:i am serene's daddy
JOane> ???? says:eh.. ok..
JOane> ???? says:studies not bad
serene ; fat queen says:yes, do you rememer me?
JOane> ???? says:yea. haah
serene ; fat queen says:so how is yr school?
serene ; fat queen says:i think serene and you need to encourage each other more
serene ; fat queen says:i think sec 3 is not easy nowaday, what do you think?
JOane> ???? says:yah, we help each other
serene ; fat queen says:good, keep it up
JOane> ???? says:very stressed, they're like cramming a lot of things together
JOane> ???? says:cos o lvls early 3 weeks this year
serene ; fat queen says:i think she is happy to hv u as her friend as she is always happy after meeting you
serene ; fat queen says:i think friednship helps a lot to release stree
serene ; fat queen says:stress
JOane> ???? says:yah, i also happy to have her ar
serene ; fat queen says:because you two know wach other for many years from young age
JOane> ???? says:yah, easier to click
serene ; fat queen says:my dad doesnt wanna leave the c omp
serene ; fat queen says:he loves u
JOane> ???? says:L O L
serene ; fat queen says:grils should have close friend of same sex so that they can share things and all thing under the sun
JOane> ???? says:yeah, true
serene ; fat queen says:so u and she shall see each other more frequent that both of u could
serene ; fat queen says:encourage each other and help eact other
JOane> ???? says:ok, we'll try. cos we both also busy with our own studies and stuff
serene ; fat queen says:please come to our house during hoilday, ok?
JOane> ???? says:yeah, okay (:
serene ; fat queen says:u can stay with her if you like and allowed by your parents
JOane> ???? says:heh.. try. not really sure my parents will allow
serene ; fat queen says:take care and study hard and smart
serene ; fat queen says:but, results are not evertthing as i have epxeirenced it myslef JOane> ???? says:k, thank oyu
JOane> ???? says:you*
serene ; fat queen says:it is relationship, understanding, love, care, and many factors in life that are more importnant than just the resluts of exam
JOane> ???? says:yes, results are just superficial stepping tools
JOane> ???? says:i think.
serene ; fat queen says:a few more marks do not make you happier but good friendship last forever
serene ; fat queen says:start treaturing friends during shcool day helps you to meet ture friends JOane> ???? says:yeah ok, i will
serene ; fat queen says:ok, that's for all and see you soon
JOane> ???? says:kays, see you
serene ; fat queen says:bye

wierd isnt it.
and whenever i dont reply him, or reply slower, he will wait until i reply if not serene cant use the comp.
(i was on the phone with her)
never liked talking to adults.
im more of a kid person:D
okay,
AND MY STOMACH AND HEAD HURTS!!
HELP! ):

im feeling pretty irritated by people who think that he'she is always right.
even if we're doing pretty much the same stuff.
fck'g retarded.

okay and so im a bad girl today.
but so what, i dont wanna waste my time four hours in school
furthermore my mum allows and encourage it.
so, dont give me the "too bad"
cos it freaking piss me off

another congrats to the two singing gods.
hope i get to congratulate them again next week (:
2545/2546,
my block no. 254. brings them luck, although they dont need any.
also the Ar of Iodine.
and im stressed.
very.
pray hard that the exams would be over soon
and that the results would be satisfying
so that i can play hard, haven been doing that for the pass 9 months
changi fairy point chalet,
HERE I COME!
woohoo.

went to support jiaqing, javin and kai xiang today
woots,
jiaqing and javin got in
they were so good lah
but still, must improve to go further
haha, jiaqing on stage his hand still thinking of his erhu
and i dont think javin sings like fei yu qing
BUT, fei yu qing's voice is not bad
ha ha ha

okay, i seriously think i should stop playing around when EOYs is coming
I MISS SENIORS!! :D

seriously,
marcus kuek can stop paying so much attention to me
cos it really freaks me out
you know,
whenever i feel like slacking and not pay attention in his lesson
i cant
cos every now and then
he'll ask,
joane, understand?
or, joane iknow you're not listening, cos you're looking past me
or,
joane, need my help or not?
* look at him, shake head
@ really?
*shake head
@sure not
* once again shake head with a blank look ( dao look)
@ ok ar, you say one ar, here got 39 people minus cheryl see you say you don need my help one ar
* blink
nod
@ wlao, you really damn dao,
buay ta han lah
* breathe
@ snatch paper, start teaching

ok, i know it's good to be like that,
but sometimes, he could like concentrate on other students?
cos i bet there's a lot more that dont understand
and he flared up at us today(?)
mood swing
stressed by all the stupid topics they're teaching
and the exams that is coming in around 2 weeks time
frankly,
so when i reached home, i slept immediately
escape

went to macpherson primary the 2nd time for CIP
okay, this time although that guy is naughty and annoying too
but at least he was cute
he speak in this indian accent which was so hilarious. HAHA
and at least he didnt took my nametag and run around the place like a mad monkey like the pri 6 kid derrick
Damien was ok.. cool lah
he sings high school musical songs.
so cute
and gave me his msn, and asked whether i was coming back nexxt week
doubt so, i'd die
hahaha
bet angelina cant stand him, cos he pointed middle finger
crude lah, pri 5 only leh
the world's changing
shi jie bian le
if it was last time, i wouldnt even dare talk to those supposedly seniors.
and even worst, wont scold them in such a rude way

slacked today.
went through my com files of pictures
miss the past and seniors
and when i watched the the farwell ppt 2005 again
teared at the end
without music somemore,
imagine what will happen if sundial dreams is played again.
ok,
at least there are memories(?)
motto: live life to the fullest

- these few days are the times im having dangerously low self esteem

I deleted my previous post,
because i realised that the whole thing was written in terrible english.
HAHA
okay, so i tried to study this morning, but ended up using the com once again.
i'm useless aint I.
you know, sometimes the world is pretty fake.
an illusion of life is placed upon us, therefore all of us are superficial.
Don't you agree that you guys out there judge people on first impressions? on looks?
if that person is fat, ugly or gay, we'll all go: eeeeew
that's a sad thing, but it's true right.
i have pessimist thoughts about the world, pardon me.
but still, i appear to be optimist,
cracking dumb jokes, that sometimes have no link.
aye, who isnt like that.
who wants the world to know that they are sad? angry or depressed? ok, maybe those desporados for attention kind of people.
so yah, another thought, everyone thinks differently.
if you think that this is wrong, others might think that it's perfectly fine.
there's no perfect and accurate answer in life,
everyone thinks differently, and that's a fact.
if not, why do you think there are conflicts in this world?
the terrorists could just sit at home and watch the JOKER destroy batman
or watch BIRDMAN save the world.
yes, there is something called birdman, ask your father who is above 40.

enough of my crap?
yeah, i guess so.
BYE

okay,
so these few days have been "studying" real hard.
tried to lah, but was usual, to no avail
at serene's house now
came back from the airport, supposedly to send cindy off,
but yah, due to my stupidity.. :D
went to toa payoh yesterday
and sorry caroline! ):
congrats to jiaqing and javin.
and yah, nothing more to add
so fat, holidays have been really boring
yah.
yah
yah

sometimes i wonder, when you hear someone say someting, how many of them are real(?) do they speak for the sake of speaking, but just dont mean a word. i hate to keep pondering about lies, but i cant help it. i suck.
trying so hard to ignore your existance.
im gonna succeed, i tell you (:
BYE