today is certainly not a good day. first period pe, sat in the rain for quite some time. den ran in the rain. sho "cool"? after running in the rain, had to do pushups, skipping and sit ups. hurhur. den went back to class.. haiZ.. a lot of thinking.. a lot a lot a lot... maybe.., should just heck care and forget about the past and continue with life.., forget all the gd times too.., in case i just cant bear to let go.
den after that, stuff myself with disgusting food. donnoe why, just so shuang to eat things tt i don like when i aint in the mood. hahas. den chilli was refreshing too! (:
won tt cans thingy poster thing. 3rd onlyy. stupid annversary, cant be bothered, this yr anniversary thing so lame.. -.- went meet khang leng and others after schh. ate some disgusting food again and went for comm meeting. really hope that we new comm cann bring co to greater heights. the ex comm really did a good job, thanks! love ya!
after tt.. walked out of sch with jamie. bought the book to record things, den went home. on the bus to mrt to my house was real terrible..., very giddy, den keep knocking into people on the mrt.. cos very shaky. went home.. immediately wet to lie on bed.. wahh.. si bei shuang... but head chao pain and giddy. wanna vomit. vomitted too. den now, just shouted at my mother. so, ambert khoo called her to say i haven finished homework.. nth happened.. now she don care liaoz.. i piaing my maths.. she ask me write compo for my brother? wad the fuck! ok ok.. gotta relax ler,.. if not my brain really will explode.. cant stand it.

ok!, happy happy happy again! (: smilex!

seriously don wanna be feel sad, must appear cheerful always. hehe ^^ sleeping time is always my best hours of the day. yeahh!, nitez ppl!

today went schh.. den forgot wad happened ler. lolx. just noe today got debate.. den, the grps dint prepare.., hope our grp will do better. den had photo taking for our class. whee! bprrowed tie from chek kai, kinda screwed it up? lolx! so sorry wor! had co photo taking. quite busy with the blazers and co badge.. sundries!! xie shern!, not sunkist orange! -.- so dotx. haa. den went for geog, den went kallang macs...played with tigers! hahas, den rewrote the co badge people's name, cos just now write until damn damn ugly lorhs, i see le very bu shun yan. lolx.did like one qns of maths den go home.. haha. when go home tt time, crap a lot at the bus stop, cos the bus very slow den come. hahas! "chair for two!" cos no table (: hahas! sat same bus with tiffy and jia qing... errrs.. kinda., yuu noe wad. hahas. den there's this old woman in front of me laughing... donnoe whyy osho, maybe it is cos i was like slowly moving further and further away from them? hahz!,, see tt old woman, veh veh funny. wahaha!

im like a very deep thinker in all sorts of things. may it be my own post.. like bringing pen and paper... or personal problems... i think so deeply that.. sometimes, it might not be a good thing. almost every second... im like thinking about things happening around me. im such a paranoid., think and fear... and feel scared... joane, stop thinking! ahh...
haiZ.. i feeling like i lost something very precious to me yeahh... still think innocent is bliss, maybe not?.. but before i noe all these stuff, i wont feel that sad and stuff barhs..maybe i shouldnt feel this way.. but donnoe whyy.. when i learned bout all these stuff, i like.. weird weird feeling... a little tingling in my chest. and it aint nice. aiya.. i don wann tok bout sad things here ler, CHANGE TOPIC!

now trying to do maths specimen paper 2 part 2.had an allience with ivan, he help me do specimen paper 3, den i finish paper 1 and 2. ambert khoo said wad, by hook or by crook, i have to finish it. and this is considered by crook? (= hehe. tok to ivan for quite a long time barhs... a lot of stuffs laa.. budden... not those tt are really crucial ;) i vov never to say out my problems or wad i feel and stuffs to anyone again.., must be happy always. one bad experience is bad enough. ^^
ok, i on with the specimen paper 2 lerr. people out there, do take care! joane is off with the wind! puff!, byee!

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!

It's the first day of school! so happy to see my fellow ye ren bang today. (: hehe, same old lame crappy class. reached school,.. as usual, see people pia ing homework. budden, i cant be bothered ler, since cannot do finish, i osho don wann copy, wad's the use of copying? hahas, den kana scolded by lots and lots f teachers,.. haiZ... siann!! hahas, den ambert khoo ask me to finish my maths tml by hook or by crook. how to by crook? everyone pass up ler! cannot copy ler! lols! don care le laa... donnoe wad i doing here to slack too (= heex!, just find today was really fun laughing at our class jokers again. really nice to be backk in our hm class once again!
durng lunch break went immediately to meet up with jamie. brought a perper and pen.., cos like everytime must ask them to write name and blazer they took der. hhaa. den spent my whole lunch break there, helping ppl get their blazers. went to the comm room first, cos got a lot of blazers and ties there.
after school went to bugis with stephh and carline! yeahh! i love my fellow girls! took neoprints and the outcome was nice! really nice. very long nvr hang out with them liaos. (= went to macs first to eat. den took 2 times of neoprints. hahas.
first day gone., awaiting for tml lerr! if im not wrong, tml have two photo takings? class photo and co photo. !!! yeahhh!
today was fun overall... just something upsetted me just now.. haiZ..
ok, shant say anymore!, homework time!! ciaoz!

part2
everything is over so soon.. happy things don last long.. it will at last end. comm camp is over.., co camp is over.. lets end this with a smile, and go to school like b4 tomorrow. i will miss the holidays.., where i have spent it with OAC, comm camp and co camp..., iLOVEit. den.. one month of holidays.. just like that.. GONE. so fast and swift. homework not completed.. haven studied... but, i truely enjoyed myself with people i hold so dear to my heart. i still have a lot of homework left undone.. tomorrow sure diedie. hahas, hope that i could spend the 2nd half of the year wisely.., streaming ler, joane must jia you ler. sec 4s osho pia le k? JIA YOU! now must continue life like how it used to be liaos, tho no more sec 4s by our side, i truely believe that they will be in our hearts till the end of time. they haven left chung cheng yet.. they left cchmsCO... no more seeing them crapping during dazu.. and no more walking, running out of school. no more roti prata.. no more hor fun and stuffs. hahas! really really miss those times.. donnoe wad happened.. just... flashback on those times.. remember us eating dinner together... remember the doreamon in fredrick's house... remember the magic tricks.... remember roller blading.., kbox... taking neoprints... just walking aimlessly... holding hands and running out... i remember those lovely messages i received... and how i first got to know these wonderful seniors.. first impression.... gradually become friends... and now.. bonded so close together. i've said this a lot of times, but i gonna say this. iLOVEseniors! hope that i will always be in ur hearts and if ever you were to feel alone or in need of someone to tok to, i am always here with my gigantic ears. (= we aint just juniors and seniors anymore... we are a family. and i love this huge CO family! thanks for giving me warmth and security.
lots of love.,
jojo
part1
tomorrow hols over ler... like so fast one.. cann still remember 1st of june., den just like that.. it is already the last day of holidays ler. donnoe wad will happen tomorrow osho.. sitting arrangement.., homework problems.. haven do finish.. den at lunch break must give out blazers.., haiZ.. hope nothing goes wrong, cos still got a lot of blazers in the comm room.. -pray- hard for everything to go smoothly. don want to have problems cropped up. (:
guess i'll blog later barhs.. now must do homework ler.. like did so little bit only? feeling so guilty. hahas. ciaoz!

yesterday had a blasting time with the seniors! had a junior-senior lunch at swensons. we were like havoc in swensons, den went to bugis take neoprints and stuffs... thanks ppl!, i love you guys!

budden... life is always unfair.., God gave me these short moments of happiness.... and gave me those long hours of torture at home. set my mind to doing maths, but end up washing stuffs and quarreling with my mother. hur hur... really wanna know how many people are like me. thsis morning... was asked to wash again.. very irritating cann! den, asked to write down where i went throughout the week, wad time i come home, with who.. wow!, PRISON LIFE! my this 14 yrs of life are being controlled every second.. i cant stand it anymore... furthur more.., it is ruining my life! a few minutes ago... phone kana snatched off., kept, hidden in an unknown place.... my poor phone suffering.. ARGHX!i wann back my precious phone! ahh! really really wanna scream out loud...(which i already did), i donnoe wad's the liffe at home for... it is so waste of my life... i cant live my life to the fullest cos of these people who have the same blood as me... who gave me my life... and so.. claiming that it is their life.... they control it. so im a IT. saying that i did not do homework, force me to stay at home.. and when i did...., surprisingly not expected to do any homework..., instead, asked to do all those SHIT stuffs!! yuu noe wad? i call it shit! all those shit things i have to do all day, i don see my brothers doing it. i have to say it, FUCK THIS WHOLE SHIT OUT OF MY LIFE!

i will miss the seniors so so so much... they gave me the security of a family.... the security i lacked.. and they gave me such many memories of joy..., they were the ones i treasure most... i just cant imagine life without them..., i don want to get use to the life without them...

current homework status: 14 qns of maths specimen paper one

Just came back from CO camp.., very tired.. YAWNZ... it was fun laas, but the FUNNEST thing was night walk and the TOUCHIEST thing is farewell party.. sobx sobx.. I SIMPLY LOVE SENIORS SO SO SO MUCH!
night walk went with sheng long, hui min and shi wee. this time the was much much scarier den last yr der, and it was super duper nice. (:
notice i dint really elaborate on this camp unlike the others... cos.. haiZ.. as yuu all noe.. really have no mood to try to remember every single thing that happened during camp. hehe..
farewell party... cried... expected... so very very sad,,, just that indescripable feeling.... a feeling that made me think a lot.. and when i say a lot, i meant a lot a lot. lot until it is all in a mess right now up in my head,.. ROJAK! lolx. and it aint a nice feeling.. I LOVE YUU GUYS SO MANYMANY...
just wanna dedicate this sth like a poem?, to the sec 4s lorhs.. den it is like.. more than sentences than poem laas, but... it conveys the message to them better.. :

Goodbye to you my senior friends
I hope that I have earned a place in your hearts for you not to forget me Thou I might just be a Freshmen I hope that you have learned something from me as I have from you
I hope that I well see you in the future and when we do I will greet you with a smile and a hug and I hope you well too
I am happy to have been part of your life even though it was just a year but it felt like forever to me and I feel I have made you friends for life
I hope u feel the same about me
So wipe off those tears for it is not farewell forever because you never know what the future brings
I will try my very best to do so too, but for now, I have to say,
You guys were the best seniors i can ever have.
Just love you manymany. (:

i really hope that now sec 4s, yuu guys leave us now to pursue o'levels results, and sincerely pray that all of you will achieve your goal. simply MUST jia you k? for me.. i will pia for my streaming too,.. let's do it together, may the hearts of us juniors and yuu seniors be always bonded together.. and beating as one.

iLOVEseniors!
We have grown so much together,
throughout these dramatic years.
now we must say goodbye,
to our seniors so very dear.
don't let our goodbyes mean forever,
let them just mean a while.
let this all end without a tear,
let it end with a smile.
we have been through so much these years,
forever the memories we will share,
of the fun, sad, crazy things we did,
with the ones that truly care.
don't treat this like a REAL goodbye,
don't let this be a loss,
of the seniors we have grown to love so much,
throughout these years of chaos.
forever our friendships will remain,
each others hearts we will always keep.
we have done so much together,
we have seen each other weep
we have to go on living, though
different paths we shall take.
we have to go on living,
no matter how much our hearts will ache.
we must go on with our own lives now,
though it might bring a tear.
just don't ever forget the juniors you have,
the ones so far and yet so near.
i know just what your thinking,
this all just isn't fair,
but no matter how far away from each other,
we will still always be there.
no matter how hard we try,
eventually we must part.
even though saying goodbye to each other,
will leave a scar across my heart.
throughout the years we each accomplished,
our dreams and worst fears.
because we believed in each other,
this is where it all started,
and this is where it ends.
now we all must say goodbye,
to our fun-loving and caring seniors.
GRADUATION SONG - BY VITAMIN C
And so we talked all night the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a diffent track
And if you got something to say you need to say
you better say it right now cos you dont have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I din't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
Alll the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
We little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
I keep,I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la..
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la...
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought this this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
this song made me cry during primary six graduation party... now., im having the exact same feeling.

no more a free girl..

part 2-
came backk home. was at the studio of some sort. hahas!, so cool. veh funny osho. den mama scolded me, father gave me a warning and a look, and my phone is at risk now. haiZ... went online.. errrs, fredrick, i not siansian.. don really will bring my mood to msn de. really, maybe cos of my nick den yuu think i sian eh?.. but, don cos of tt say don wann tok to me k? muacks,
really hope my parents will understand me one day.., the life im living now... ot's not so simple ya know.., it isnt always about what they want.. so.. yah.., really hope that it will happen soon.
tommorow ppl! wann go watch the soccer match? tell me tell me quick k? need ppl pei me. hahaz! (: jia you guys! win for chung cheng! pee pee! go gogo!
part 1-
a new skin.. haiZ... 5 ppl now at sentosa.. having fun.. and me..?, rotting here. dint wanna quarrel with my mother cos i want to go sentosa., cos i noe, it aint a MUST thing. i have to first complete things that are my responsibilities. but most of the time.., i cant even be granted to do those things that are within wad im supposed to. promises to friends and stuff.. and.. my own moral values.. principles.. i wann to make promises to my parents too, to study and stuff like that.... but..., it doesnt gives me the rights to shake off my responsibilities and break promises and assurance i have already made to other people.
they want me to study... but is locking me at home with my FEROCIOUS brother gnna make me study? it's gonna make me hate this house more.! everything in my life seems so stupid now.., cos it aint solely mjne anymore... im sharing it now. with my family. i noe tey wann me to make a right choice, for streaming this yr.. but... this aint the right way.i don take hard treatment. and i noe my limits.
to conclude everything, everything sucks now... let life goes on with them controlling.. TAKE OVER ME.. im no longer myself anymore.. goodbye world.. im not the Jo ppl call me... just ling hui en, joane. the name my parents gave me from the day i saw the first ray of light..
i hope to ppl out there... don associate me with other ppl... i just wanna be an individual., just me. thanks. (:

hard time persuading my parents to let me go for committee camp. it is totally worth it. cos is was a total blast! fun fun and more fun! the chalet itself was big and clean. very nice and cold. hahas,
had some ice breakers' games at first in the hall. we played wacko!jun hong was so cute when he ran about in the circle we formed. the next game was 007! this game very fun, as in, the way ppl shout. hahas, veh funny. (: the 2 person beside be was joy and fredrick. haaaz, ... fredrick, jia qing and kai xiang very funny jiu shi le, the way they AHHH~! we had dinner after this game lerr,. was telling lame jokes and no sense-ing at the table. hahas! fredrick is NO SENSE, sylvia is LAMEFORD. lolx, crappy, really must appreciate crappy peeps around me. (=and im glad that some ppl like me for wad i am, my character and stuffs. yays.,! yuu guys rocks.
went into the chalet wad watched tv. onlyy managed to go in to see the THE END in love at dolphin bay onlyy. so pathetic. haiz, i wanna see! but no regrets, cos i enjoyed myself with those crappy ppl. hahas! watched jue2 dui4 super star. laugh until peng, seriously think that kai xiang, bee kwee cann sing much much better, they hsld go join! what a pity... tsk tsk.. fredrick and jun hong den switched off the tv and we proceeded to pass the parcel! there are forfeits written on the wrapping paper, let me recall... the many forfeits we were supposed to do. :D lolx! kai xiang and zhiwen had to sing a duet song, sylvia, clarence, fredrick had to have whip cream on their faces, joy had to eat lemon, khang leng and sylvia had to kiss ppl, jia qing had to pose for the camera. that's all i cann remember barhs. heex,.... and i had to run around the circle and act like super woman? so dots! but ON mah.. haaz... think i look like maniac sia.
we then had a very serious talk... supposed to sayy wad we feel about co.. haiz.... really hope that i cann do a good job of zong wu,... new comm jia you! i listen to they one by one talk.. haiz.... den finally... it is the sec 4s.... the more i hear.. the harder i tried to stop myself from cryingg..will really miss them a lot.... as what fredrick sayy.... some of us are like their babys., they watch us mature slowly... from a young and innocent sec 1.. to sec 2 and 3.., a more independant child. and to me... they really are people that guide us along this path of secondary schh. we will continue to grow.... and make yuu guys proud of us, and make everyone be proud of CO.
second day was outdoor activities. went to the beach to play H2O first. i fell down while running away from darren! ahh! hahas, not really pain laa... wann continue to play, bee kwee don allow. and im not a small rebel! i just wanna play! LOL. she wash with water lerr den pain derr. OUCH. after a while.. I CANN PLAY LER! hahas,! den, darren chased me again. -.- hahaz! so funny.
we then played those apple games. god! 1st one was to eat the apple.... den our face had to get so close? as in... yuu see someone face so close hors, obviously will start laughing de rights? normal reaction cann. hahas, den i rather go close my eyes. =D lolx den after we finished the apple..... i almost vomited.. cos it is veh disgusting laa... ppl saliva everywhere. but we finished it! yeah! so proud of our group manz! anyways, our group is me, liang yu, michelle, kai xiang and clarence. the other apple game was to eat the apple from a pail of water. veh diff sia. pl like pauline went all out! pro! three cheers for pauline! although she is not our grp de. hahas, after that we played water bomb. kai xiang was our untouchable!! filled up and tied the bags. started playing! had to protect kai xiang.... but, my leg kana so much salt water.. buay tahan.. den came out.. chao pain cann.. haiz.... i wann play de.. sobx sobx... went to wash my leg, bee kwee pei me. b4 that helped jh they all take photo. den when i came back with bee kwee, the game was over. den took pics together. SMILE!
we went for our lunch and bath after that. i,michelle,xiang feng, zhiyin and sylvia went to eat first. at burger king. eat le den we went back to chalet. we had admin stuff to do next, had a little tok with yiqing. rest assure., i and jamie will do our job de. (: =winks=
we den went to get jia qing to come chat with us, if not he will feel left out de. jia qing!, yuu are not left out k?it doesnt matter whether yuu are in comm not, it is whether yuu did do ur part to help CO, and yuu did more den ur part.
walked to the beach again to play captain's ball. old comm VS new comm!! first round we lost.... forgot wad score le. we tried, but this proves that lao3 de4 la4. hahas! rested for a while, waited for yiqing and kaixiang for water. thanks manz! den drink le, donnoe whyy... my leg suddenly seems more "sour" den just now on the field. sat on the bench.... partly cos of other things laas, but ya..... dint wanted to continue playing at first.. but decided to play again, dint wanna be a spoilsport. ran for a while.. but legs getting heavier and heavier sia, so stand at jia qing there. to guard? hahas. occasionally going a little forward. in the end, they still won. haaahaaaaas.
walked backk to chalet. den saw the gransazers rehearsal. so cute! for children to see one, to think jia qing osho will watch derr. so cute! den waited for the barbeque, wanted to help... but cos a whole grp of us volunteered, they don wann us to help. we ahd our new comm meeting instead. to discuss wad is needed to be done loh. halfway thru, tiffany asked for help, me, jamie and joy, the three Js? went to help prepare the hot dogs and crab sticks. den quickly got backk to the room. soon after.. it's eating time! heex. i dint really go bbq.. cos like so many ppl crowdng le, don wanna make it crowdier. haas, is there even such a word?
watch tv.. den night time lerr... was sleepy.. tried not to sleep.. but still slept. hahas, was watching fredrick they all play bridge., but still cant figure out how to play. sometime, teach me k? (:
haiz..... last camp morning.. played taidi. and finished the food. bye seniors..... thanks to tiffany beekwee and min ru for organising this comm camp for us. it was really really fun. and as fred says, without our coorperation, this wouldnt have been done smoothly, and brought everyone so much fun! so,... concludes with... WE ROCKS!
went to eat at white sands and den went bugis to take neoprint. slept on the mrt on the way home and almost missed the station! was like.... jerked up from my seat and ran out of the door. so paiseh... but lucky, i was the only one on tt double seated seat. hahas....

camp, the YE REN BANG!
first day:
ice breaker games. got a super nice instructor, FRADDY. lame crap "handsome" fraddy. did the flag, learnt cheerz and den played simon says! hahas!, won lorhs! he so play cheat! bleaghs!
ok, den went to play candle wall, not nice laas. haas.. quite boring, a few of us played with the fire and leaves, and most importantly, SLACK!
after that went to sleep rights, not xi guan, nvr sleep. sat below the hut to enjoy the breeze. instructor jeremy veh funny, like pink panther liddat when me, stephh and carline downstairs. in the end, managed to sleep a lil,....
2nd day:
low elements games. the wall thing, dint climb, cos shoe too gigantic, wahahs. den station games. we made it! 59 seconds! yays! squat down good idea rights? *winks* hahas!
we slacked quite a lot laas, cos everyone tired and un-enthu. fraddy gave attitude, cos stephh and zhiwen late. but he soon ok liaos. den tt girl, donnoe how to spell her name, wrote journal? "it's fun toking to yuu" " i hope fraddy remembers my name" "instructor fraddy'd mood is getting better" hhas! veh funny. even fraddy got goosebumps! his reaction chao funny can?!!! wahhahas!
had kayaking. the water was dirty and cold, den the mud is soo... muddy? ahas! but fun lorhs! sat at the last kayak, den got to play the game to run across. so nice! loved it manz, haas, den kayak around. wl! fraddy splash the water..... i whole body chao wet cann. eyes inside osho got in. den the other instructors osho. hahas! they so cute when we all form one circle and then they splash water at us. AHH! water war!
den had this kidnap thing at night, jing ya kana captured. hahs! she so ke lian sia, mosquito bites.had a lot of running, did 10 stations b4 we got our first key?? claps! hahaz.
we stayed at canteen hear Fraddy and Ping Wei crapp. wahh! chao ke ai lorhs. they are 2 childish people!
den went to sleep, cos they have briefing or something. haas,
heard tt i sleep talk? wow!,.. so cool. hahas,
3rd day:
high elements!! ahh! first obstacle tho it is the easiest one, i veh scared. cos like, first time, den i first one somemore., not really sure wad to do lors. haas, den the second one is the log and tyre. yays!! competed it! yays! proud of myself, of me someone hu is scared of heights. heex!
den rock climbing, slacked, hear jokes from rudi and fraddy. wahh, rudi bian tai! disgusting mind of his, and he is still an instructor sia!! teach students dirty stuffss?!?
hahs, so cute he. he rock climbing so pro sia, monkey. (= den the challenge pole, stephh kana fraddy pick, was scary den she cry..... was so high, who wouldnt be scared?
ok, den camp fire..! fun fun and more fun! hyper liaoz,
when fraddy briefing us at the end of the day that time, he cried...... haiz, was sitting in front of him... den noticed he wasnt fake crying, eyes red red derr. so shocked ley!! ahh! so gan dong! den he was like.. shhh., den asked him izit real, he just nod head. haiz, haiz... DON CRY! haas. he's so nice.
den we went to bathe, den at canteen toked to fraddy again. bla bla bla. crap again lorhs, miss him real lots, BUT!, i am human with no feelings, so nvr cry. (= hahaas!,
lucly we took pictures, for memories. YE REN BANG ROCKS!
4th day:
just cleared up the place lorh, at tt time i veh siann, so nvr do anything. have to say bye bye lerr. BYE BYE! (=
maybe tok to yuu on msn or anythingg. whee`s will miss them? yeahh.. crapp and jokes. but,........ ppl around me are osho to crappy and funny, must treasure... yayss! yuu guys rocks! those tt really cares, and not putting up a fake front. iLOVE yuu!

durng this camp maybe still got a lot of things, maybe i forgot liaos, hahas, but fun laas.
onlyy sometimes.... veh siann cos of some reasons laa, haaas,budden, destined to be like that, LIFE'S JUST LIKE THAT., so... must take it lorh... nth i cann do osho.

tomorrow camp liaoz. arghx, have this like trek pants?, or wadever, material so thick, wann me hot until die arh?? arghx, wth.... yuu are not the one wearing, or cos yuu cann tok wad cock osho cann rights?! seriously think yuu have simply no brains. arghx!! fcuk cann, good thing is go camp. 4 days 3 nights donnid see yuu liaos. HOORAY! yays!
im rejoicing., see??
after camps still got problems.... haiz, problems everyday, like when will it stop?
just hope OAC will be fun lorh, oh yaa, i waited outside the hse for 3 plus hours!! ahh! so suck.
firstly, toked to carline, den min ru, den ltr ivan, den yiqing. hahas!
ok, officially in ANGRY mode now. cant stand everything, SO DON IRRITATE ME! all living things are annoying creatures, including me, and esp. my family.FUCK THEM! IT'S ALWAYS MY FAULT, EVERY SINGLE THING, EVEN WHEN IT IS NOT, EVEN WHEN IM LIKE THE VICTIM? IM AT FAULT TOO! i have to like show respect to him even tho it is him who is at fault? so wad if he is 3 yrs older den me? SO?! i don give a fckg damn!
den whyy do yuu look at me onlyy by my results?, is it the onlyy way to prove im capable? isnt there other ways that im good at? if only academic is important to yuu, den in the future, am i onlyy destined to be a worker and not a boss? isnt leadership as important? whyy cant yuu all just think it in our way? yuu said if yuu all had known i was like that, yuu wouldnt catch be when im about to fall when i was just borned? ok, fine, i will just die when i first started to even see the light. good, den i wouldnt see such a cruel world..