no more a free girl..

part 2-
came backk home. was at the studio of some sort. hahas!, so cool. veh funny osho. den mama scolded me, father gave me a warning and a look, and my phone is at risk now. haiZ... went online.. errrs, fredrick, i not siansian.. don really will bring my mood to msn de. really, maybe cos of my nick den yuu think i sian eh?.. but, don cos of tt say don wann tok to me k? muacks,
really hope my parents will understand me one day.., the life im living now... ot's not so simple ya know.., it isnt always about what they want.. so.. yah.., really hope that it will happen soon.
tommorow ppl! wann go watch the soccer match? tell me tell me quick k? need ppl pei me. hahaz! (: jia you guys! win for chung cheng! pee pee! go gogo!
part 1-
a new skin.. haiZ... 5 ppl now at sentosa.. having fun.. and me..?, rotting here. dint wanna quarrel with my mother cos i want to go sentosa., cos i noe, it aint a MUST thing. i have to first complete things that are my responsibilities. but most of the time.., i cant even be granted to do those things that are within wad im supposed to. promises to friends and stuff.. and.. my own moral values.. principles.. i wann to make promises to my parents too, to study and stuff like that.... but..., it doesnt gives me the rights to shake off my responsibilities and break promises and assurance i have already made to other people.
they want me to study... but is locking me at home with my FEROCIOUS brother gnna make me study? it's gonna make me hate this house more.! everything in my life seems so stupid now.., cos it aint solely mjne anymore... im sharing it now. with my family. i noe tey wann me to make a right choice, for streaming this yr.. but... this aint the right way.i don take hard treatment. and i noe my limits.
to conclude everything, everything sucks now... let life goes on with them controlling.. TAKE OVER ME.. im no longer myself anymore.. goodbye world.. im not the Jo ppl call me... just ling hui en, joane. the name my parents gave me from the day i saw the first ray of light..
i hope to ppl out there... don associate me with other ppl... i just wanna be an individual., just me. thanks. (: