teacher's day today (:
ok, im officially bored.
saw a few seniors in the last couple of days; joel tiffy fred javin yirui zilu and jerome (>)
yeah, really hope to have an outing or sth with seniors again
but i dont think it will be anytime soon.
haiy,
ok so im rotting at home
thanks to some retard who pangsehed me
idiots

something is everything.. everything is something and yet nothing

went back to gongshang in the end,
dint do anything much
but found out that somebody has become quite a female dog
please next time, keep your comments to yourself.
everyone is their own individual, dont judge people into two categories; people that are like you, and people that are unlike you.
and stop showing that you're jealous of people :D
please and thankyous

anw went to study with rene,
she can really concentrate on studying when she puts her mind to it
so unlike me
and she's cleverer too.
sad, and to think that i thought that chung cheng's homework are difficult enough
dunman high's much worst (duH)
yeah okay, studied till around 7 plus,
went to popular, shun bian wanted to drop by min ru's work place to say hi
but dint see her there.
haiy
yah den go went home after that
i think im having amnesia
cos i can't really remember much of my pri school days.
forgot a lot of people that i once knew
like, who's breynerd?! (dont even know it's spelt like that)
ok, anw, i dont really remember knowing him/
but yah, im supppose to have known him b4
sian,
i hope i remember those days
cos i think it's funny when you think back on your childhood days
how we do retarded stuff and all
know some stuff that,
some people that i actually have a liking for ( not in the way you think, just respected and dont dislike anymore) is quite despo . ya so, i'll learn to feel oblivious to everything

The tenacity and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties has become weakened. She feels overtaxed, worn out, and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground. She feels this adverse situation as an actual tangible pressure which is intolerable to her and from which she wants to escape, but she feels unable to make the necessary decision.

She's willing to participate and to allow herself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension. She clings to her belief that her hopes and ideas are realistic, but needs encouragement and reassurance. Applies very exacting standards to her choice of a partner and wants guarantees against loss or disappointment.

Suffering from pent-up overstimulation which threatends to discharge itself in an outburst of impulsive and impassioned behavior. The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. Her inability to enforce her will causes her to over-react in stubborn defiance and by assigning to others all the blame for her own failures.

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Stefthyname is your soulmate.

You truly love Car'line

You consider Min Ru your true friend.

You know that Serene is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Ivan for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Javin is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Cindy is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Fredrick is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Fredrick changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think JiaHong is shy and nonconfrontational. And that JiaHong has a hidden internet romance. (?)

got this from JamieTan :D

some are totally true.. some i just plain weird

HEROES
no, heroes are not superman etc etc.
heroes are those people who could finish their homework everyday without fail and understand everything the teacher says and doesnt go for tuition. and most importantly of all, doesnt fail any subjects.
me, on the other hand, is the villian.
i don't do any homework, don't understand a shit the teachers are saying and most importantly, fail almost every test. (e maths, a maths, physics, chem)
the only thing that is identical to a hero is i don't go for tuition.

Tests
Teachers are evil creatures who give us loads of tests and tells us 2 days before hand.
chinese test today, e maths and physics test on friday, a maths and geog test next tue, SS test next wed.
This explains why young people are having a higher percentage of depression cases and why singapore mistook that we're experiencing ageing population now; young adults are looking more like elderlies now with their strands of white hairs. especially those that are too poor to dye their hair black.

Sleeping hours
If i become a newsbroadcaster one day, everynight after the news at 11pm, i'll reckon everyone to sleep because people should have at least 8 hours of sleep everyday, especially students who have to wake up at 5 plus everyday.
If i become a scientist one day, i'll invent something to slow down the rotation of the earth so that each day will have 48 hours.
If i become a lawyer one day, i'll... scold the judge :D

went showtime yesterday
and saw nurul, jonathan and JOAKIM GOMEZ!
he's damn cute luh, cuter than on tv.
cos on tv, i dint really think he is VERY cute, just cute.
and the cute guy who can't really sing.
yeah, but he real live really damn super cute
no wonder he ain't out of singapore idol yet
CUTE !

was kinda sick during the recording,
plus the damn lights were shining directly at my eyes,
making it worst.
but it's really great that chung cheng got the highest marks
cos they really rocked,
and deserved it.
realised that being celebs are tough, cos of the irregular hours they work,
pity them. tsk.

good luck to rit later on for teenage icon (:

You Are 16% Happy

You know that there's more to life than how you've been living it. Life can be rough at times, but most of your unhappiness is self-inflicted.

How Happy Are You?

Your Chances of Being a Multimillionaire: 48%

You have a decent shot at being a multimillionaire. Surprised? You're confident and a hard worker. Keep it up!

Will You Be a Multimillionaire?

Your Lucky Underwear is Blue

You are caring and extroverted. You've made relationships your number one focus, and your lucky blue underwear can bring some balance to them. You thrive in one-on-one situations. You are a good listener and a natural born therapist. Sometimes you let the concerns of others become too important in your life, leading to stress and worry. If you want more balance, put on your blue underpants. They'll help you take care of yourself first.

What Color Is Your Lucky Underwear?

You Are 26% Selfish

In general, you are a very giving person who treats others very well. But at times, you insist on getting your way - when it matters most to you.

How Selfish Are You?

You Are 36% Lady

You tend to make up your rules of etiquette, throwing all conventions aside. And while you try to be a lady (sometimes), your behavior is often quite shocking.

Are You A Lady?

What Your White Outfit Means

You're a natural beauty - and you never let your fashion steal the show. You have a quiet confidence that you'll look great in almost anything. While you may feel understated, men are attracted to your mystery. Designer match: Gucci Signature accessory: A cashmere scarf

What Does Your Favorite Outfit Say About You?

You've Already Found Love!

Whether you know it or not, you've already found love And this guy could be it, so hold on to him! And if you're single, start looking more carefully at your guy friends It could be anyone you already know, so keep an open mind.

Where Will You Find Love?

see, im bored;

had a great walkout with car'line

really miss those times...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM (:
treated my family to pizza hut,
yeh, something's wrong with me today,
but let's just say.. today's my lucky day :D

happy sweet sixteen khangleng !

I'm tired now,
i'm tired everyday.
wanted to sleep in the afternoon,
but thanks to those indian men with hankerchief cutting grass,
i couldn't sleep.
SLEEEP

nights (x

the world's oxygen seems to be depleting,
couldn't really breathe properly in the morning
finally experienced pre-fainting.
but guess i just dint sleep the previous night
so yes, i just woke up

tmr's finally a dazu,
hope things will be alright?

ahh, im still tired.
anw, how come fiona xie's breast so big?
my mum say it's real.
hahaah,

cross country today, went with yizhuang, angelina and angel.
we walked the whole way, but my leg still hurts luh, cos it's brisk walking
then sat down in the sun, with dragon flies and grasshoppers,
having spastic talks with rachelko and abel.
hahaha, rk was funny. she's scared of grasshoppers.
anw, main point of this post is,
I GOT LOST TWICE TODAY
i know, RETARDED
but it's scary getting lost,
esp. if you're alone, in the night, looking around and you dont know where you are.
yes, i dint follow jerome and yizhuang's instructions well, and ended up at lavender finding a way home.

and so, i realised.
i relied a lot on others in the past.
and yeah, now too.
without them, im lost.
lost in everywhere; everything i do.
and somehow, these people are just... gone.
you know, just somewhere not around you
and you start feeling so very insecure and scared of the world.
yes, i'm feeling like that.

yeps, im fine already.
thanks :D

yesterday was the trip to laoshi's house.
met jamie and geraldine first.
bought presents for weilin and wanting, and shopped around for mua sunglasses xD
jamie bought a bracelet, yeh it's gorgeous, but i just dont have the i wanna buy feeling.
lol-
went back to the mrt station and met up with the COUPLE.
and then sylvia, shiang and joy soon came.
the walk there became some kind of an excursion, because everyone walks in pairs -.-
i was tricked into buying helium balloons for geraldinequek.
ate shui jiao at laoshi's place
then we sat on the stairs and started, as what jamie says, camwhoring.
the pics were all pretty, GERALDINE! i want the pictures!!
and please dont distribute those spastic pictures of me.
please and thankyous (:


after that they went to take neoprints and i met up with my parents.
i'm forced to see NDP
seriously, everything is almost the same every year
only that this year's exceptionally boring.
no idea too, maybe it's cos, thanks to my idiotic brother, i sat with this gu gu that lies on my shoulder whenever she wants to talk to me.
that is so gross.
so the ending part of the NDP i used the cap to cover my eyes.
too bright and shiny.
oh, but the fireworks were cool
but it wasnt the nicest, there'll be nicer ones tomorrow and on saturday.
hahas, during the driveout of the stadium, saw many dumb dumb people, illegally parking their car outside the stadium waiting for those pretty fireworks.
have that urgh to open the window and shout to them their retardness.
funny to see them taking camera, anticipating for the fireworks, wonder how long have they been there? HAHA
i feel sorry for them ):
spastic :/

so today's gonna be another boring day,
gonna have manymany homework tomorrow, and all of it are not with me,
:D

i got the temptation to change blogskin again.
heeee, CIAOZ

oh man,
my eyes hurts shit.
sore eyes, and it became the size of fred's eyes.
serious.
yesterday, only one of it was like that, now both shrunk.
ok, so im trying to blog without having to look at the screen, cos it's pain when i look at the screen.
ok, it's pain even if i dont look at the screen.
it's pain when i open my eyes.
it's pain when i turn my eyeballs.
yes, pain
and no, it's not that having small eyes is bad, it's just that having small bloodshot eyes is eeeeks.
gross me out.
makes me wonder what if my eyes remains this size forever.
ohmygod, so not me.
haiy, ok dont t hink i can go to school for the next few days.
gonna miss lessons and not know anything once again.

aye.. pain.
bye bye

im feeling so neutral.
as if things are happening from the tv.
-so random (:

feeling so useless towards my surroundings. like, things are happening, but you could just watch them go by and maybe weep at it. perhaps god threw a dice to determine how our lives would go, and mine was 4. it ain't bad, but it ain't good too, and it din't even passed. that's how im going to be like, not passable. is it that you have to be smiley for 24 hours in front of everyone in the world to prove that you're a happy person? yeah, i guess people really like smiley people, cos im like that too. :D but at least i dont lick anyone's dick. ok, i think this is kind of a random thought. it's something i wanted to say since sec 1.

okay, so yesterday was bad..
very bad. or rather, this whole month was bad.
i guess it wasnt only me who felt so, right?
so, dont go read the pevious post alright/








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ok, stop here.
let me tell you something to keep you occupied,
today when i walking down the road, just beside the carpark,
there's this bottle, that is thrown down. lucky it dint hit my head!
im already dumb enough.
ok anyway, i looked up, and saw this black thing stick his head out of the "window". must be the culprit lah,
AND no, he's not indian. it's just too dark to see.
if i was 5 cm taller and 5 kg heavier, i might walk up the stairs to tick him off.
but no, im still 159cm and 43kg):
so when i get to my house (my balcony view can see the carpark),
i look out and saw him pouring some white stuff down, wetting people's hair. and you can see people desperately dodging it, walking one big round just to get away from it and no one bothered to see who the hell is doing that. and they're adults!
they can't be too afraid like me ?
could they?
it's no wonder foreigners says that singaporeans are lazy and selfish.
yeah, i am too.

lame post.. but yeah, just felt like blogging about something.
fred's got a fever so he's hot. (that makes more sense i think)
:D