Jasper passed away......
I don't know what to say anymore.
So sudden, someone can just die like that?..
Regret not visiting him, why am I such an asshole? Just some time back... he's still fine as gold. But things just changes so fast. One moment he's still living his life, and next he left. Left this world. Been thinking that sec 4s leave is the worst thing that can happen, but what's that compared to this?!! Don't know why I'm crying, but those tears just flow down. If only time would turn back when we were happily conferencing on the phone. talking bout hippopotamus;guitar; and crap...............

Don't know when will someone else have another brain cancer and leave. Always thought that none of these would happen. But when things choose to come, they will. Maybe one day I'll be going to school, and next moment, I'm gone. I don't want anyone else to leave. I would have treasured everyone that ever appeared in my life. But why did i learn this lesson only when Jasper is.....

And tomorrow is the two compositions. What a perfect timing. What nice mood to write my most hated compositions. ihate myself.

Got 13/24 for oral because of a dentist. ARGHX, that's what MDM Cheong said. haha. Stupid dentist, don't like dentists. But I'm lucky that is is only CA2 marks. Phew...

Ivan also got see <> one! It's like so damn cool. most of the time in class was talking about the show. hehe. Yixiang open eyes watch only. So far, studied a little bit of Science only. The exam fever and the panicking haven't came over me yet. But it seems so near yet so far. Friday=death day. MUSIC=SOUL+PASSION. LOL

Actually, go good or bad class don't really matter to me. Just don't want go so good ones, very stressful. HAHA. So, let me just be average. (:
Hope exams faster over, been so well-behaved these few days. So free and nothing to do. When exams are over, there will be recruitment drive and CO camp coming up. Busy and fun. ^^ Grading also coming.... scared.

ok, all the best people.

I'm going to fail my English oral. Mistakened a dentist as a baker; how stupid. =.= English is the only subject that can score without studying and yet lost away 30% in my oral. ): Hope Miss Siti is a kind-hearted soul.

now i wann to change back to normal way liaos. cos got one pests come contaminate my tag board. think she very li hai liddat. firstly, popular den show name la, like some coward hiding your face with paper bag and commenting on people. pls search yourself first. no true friends?, what about you? are you being true yourself? i don wanna be popular, few good friends are enough. cant expect the whole world to be there for you when we needs it. and it is nnot a matter of true friends, t is different people have different perspective of things and life.

End of years is coming, haven't seem to be preparing anything and the panicking isn't here yet. haha. Only worry is oral, can really pull my english marks down. Haiz.... recruitment drive is coming, so cool to see cute primary six students coming to Chung Cheng and having a tour for them. Too bad cannot play with them, - station master ): nevermind, there's still Jing Wen to pei me. He's just as cute. ! heh

Deicided to blog again. Because feeling so sian of some particular things. HAH... wanted to use "la", but I am having a "singlish" strike until english paper is over. hehe.

spent from 12 - 1030 at CARline's house. Did our demon art mask, home econs and little bit of studying. Very little, cos spent most of the night time watching television and laughing our heads off. She even laughed and grasp me by the shoulder =.= ; so agitated. HAA but actually, did a lot of work at her house, if I was at home, I wouldn't have so much accomplishment. And her TV ROCKS to the core! Love it man. ^-^

Came back home and had a scare that my computer is being demolished. Was thinking about all my precious pictures and songs. So angry, even saw the computer at the dustbin area. ARGHX.

Feeling so unappreciated right now.
"Life is so unfair" - quoted from Zongye
" Life is never fair" replied Mdm Shar.
Although it doesn't makes any link, but it totally makes sense in no matter what circumstances. May it be the science test for Zongye and for me now. It isn't much difference. Because of just 3 words, not " I Love You" which is always mistaken as all the 3 words. But it's " Life's like that".

Going for a world tour tomorrow, at Expo. LOL. Think it will be super cool, news same out today that the president was on the Great Wall of China today. HAHA. Then I'll be on top of the Ifle tower tomorrow! Anyone interested to go? Have many tickets left, and it would be nice. (:

ok, i end with Zongye's common phrase,
LIFE IS SO UNFAIR

Blogged lesser and lesser these few times, because some things just can't be described in words. And maybe... just wouldn't want to repeat myself a second time.

This week was a "home" day, everyday went home exceptionally early. House curfew? haha. Jess taught me that word. hehe. Tests and tests each week, adding to the tension of upcoming exams. Perhaps after the English paper then I shall convert back to my non-standard english. LOL.

I'm now so addicted to the Tv. People in tv just looks more friendly ^-^ , and it isn't reality. Oh yah, forgot to mention, had been playing with straws this week during lessons too. haha, Ivan bought one whole packet for me, now use until less than half. wahaha. xie shern and zong ye still use them as baby toys, they'll be future inventors. ^o^ haha.

sat bus with zhi yin yesterday, g0sh.... really miss them. Don't want things to change. ): and she saved me from the sweet couple. HAHA! so must thank her. heheee

tomorrow shall commit myself to CARline's house, if not she will come kidnap me, i don't want to die young.

ok,.. may all of your lives go smoothly. especially the sec 4s who had their prelims and o'levels are coming. JIA YOU worx! sec 2s too!, streaming.

slept and everything is gone. i have to move on and not brood over the past i guess.
time will heal all wounds
just think that being humans, we are sutpid creatures who always take the wrong move. even the tinest one can cause everything to change eh.. but i guess it aint as bad now. so, i'll look into the future. haha, like that's so raven.

find my holiday seemed to be so so meaningless. haha. supposed to study den keep slacking. hmmmms.. and today is THURS liao! From this sentence on, my post shall be in perfect english. (:
2 exams are approaching; EOYs and Ruan exam. I really must wake up from my long and never ending sleep. ZzZzZzZzz

i finally realised the reason for those long periods of agony. ARGHX! i think of those days, i feel like whacking him. his PETTY actions caused all these! but i guess... i realised things that i thought was so great was phoney. for so so so long, i keep telling myself that THAT wasnt the reason. hur... guess im only lying to myself hur. the more i think about it the more i think i can go and die liao la. WL.
always love those who always stood by me. but i know.. nothing ever remains the same..

yays. the school don wann him. haha. woots.
just had a fight with my brother which i cannot retalliate. ARGHX.

now i hope my mother will scold me beat me or whatever. so i can just cry freely and not hide. so now is, whole class support except for kong xie shern. ok lor.. i have nothing to say.
friday is a fucking day ok. this thing and ____ is leaving. seeing him for the last day perhaps. haiz.. totally sian diao. but i wanna thank miss cheong.. what she say very soothing.. and those that stood up for me.., 2 HM.. love you guys. cos i seriously think that i did nth wrong, and this isnt a case of loyalty. ok, anyone who greatly oppose scold me all you want.