i dont know why im thinking so much about it.
is it that important to me?
what does it mean to me anyway?
does it make me a better person?
does it make my life better?
maybe im just afraid,
of what things will turn out like.
furthermore, it's fck'ing important in the near future.
very near.

yeah.. thinking about it till i find a need to go meet minru and talk to her.
haha, maybe it's partly because i have nothing to do lar.
hehee.
haiy.. let's hope.. my prayer will come true? HA

haiy,.. seriously, i think being controlled over every single shit that you do sucks.
i want to do something without any limits!
and do something for myself for once, and not for others,
or my parents.

oh, and right, i need to go shopping! i want to shop for belts and bags!!
but CO night is coming, so yah, my date with esther is pushed to the last week of the holidays
sadd, cindy must be in indonesia thinking of us. maybe not.. thinking of REY perhaps. yeah. haha