decided to change skin.. just have that urge to do so.... been doingg like thinkings and thinkings and more thinkings.... in the end... decided seriously.. that persistence wont do both party good. just like.... accept my fate?.....? i just feel so unwanted cann?>...... so rubbish.. like trash prepared to throw away any time.. trash that doesnt even have a trash bag to go to.
hope yuu guys have fun lorh, no more comments.
haiz, just wanna thank those tht really really treated me as their friend. i just cant read people's thoughts., so, i wouldnt know wad others are thinking, but for just these few people.., i really cann feel the sincerity in our friendship. love yuu guys!
cann ppl who think that they are m friends pls tell me if it is true?. i just don know...... everyone...... just... vanished... just like that. MAGIC?. nahz...... guess not.. so tag yea?? pretty pls?. i wann to have that security there..
actually........ it is just these few ppl that make up my life... my happiness.... and also the very few people that made up my tears., but.. it really cann change the way i feel about life... the very fragile word.., i cannot stand the harsh cruelty of the world anymore..... and., one of the person i love most in the world... is faintly.., drifting further and further.


everything so suck noww! FCUK the whole world cann?! firstly, the above thing, secondly, my bloody family thing, and thirdly!, my studies! ARGHX! wad the hell is happening to my so perfect life last time?? why is everything so RUINED now?!
friends; -- oh ya, yuu are my friend, ooo yahh,,,,...... but, real? true? friends are the onlyy people i cann like rely on?... the only things that could make me happy is like being with them?.... WOW!, now?. forget it,.... useless. useless to continue anymore..
family; errrrs.... like when do i ever was close with them? yah! i remember! when my lil brother wasnt borned yet!! claps claps! i still cann remember! everyday, i would hear my mother screaming at me, my brother framing me, and my elder brother adding salt and pepper! i tried to hold my anger, fearing my father would flare up if i shout backk or argued. BUT I HAVE MY LIMITS! and when this volcano in my head erupts, i'll be the giant's lunch.
todayy, im stuck with my brother at home thanks to some great peeps, and the whole dayy, he have been calling my mother and complaining about my every single movement. thanks a lot guys.
studies; ok... it isnt the worse of people...... and it aint bad osho..... but it did drop?. besides, everyhting is like so fuck to me now... even this? nothing much others to sayy.
im so gonna go ANTI LIFE. i hate everything now~! wad the hell! arghx! FUCK! fuck! FCUK!fcuk! ahhh!!
and to those who is having problems too, let's set up anti life club. I HATE LIFE! whyy did i ever come into this world for?. fun, joy peace and laughter. for the sake and pleasure of my parents?