ytd slacked for the whole afternoon. Supposedly to study de, end up doing nothing. haha,
but it was nice xu4-ing jiu4.
i realised i haven do my IC! and my father's reaction was this: the most no IC only ma," =.=
ok, i think that was cool. hahah
it has been almost 2 months pass my birthday, why everyone else got letter liaos??
aye,
okay, today must study doubly hard for e maths.
or im gonna die for sure.
oh one more thing, SOUL is cool (:
CIAOZ

All the teachers are rushing through to teach the chapters.
because common test is late by 2 weeks, so they're using one hour to teach wad is supposed to be taught for like.. 5hours? i like weilin's nick, "teachers and speeding and we're on the car"
but somehow.. i feel challenged, and at the same time tired. sometimes when there's nothing to do and life's relaxed, we'll feel so bored and restless and hope that there's school, homework, tests, exams. but when there really is, we get so busy and just want the pace to slow time. contradiction.
six tests this week, plus 2 exams, = DIE!
my maths and sciences are hopeless, guess i can only rely on my humanes(how to spell?) liaos. let's hope tomorrow mr ma can knock some sense out of me while teaching me e maths. im totally clueless about wad he is teaching now :/

tomorrow alr have 3 history tests. 1 on weimar republic thingy.. which is possible to study. cos my notes a filled up, thanks to CAR. 2nd one is on soviet foreign policy, THAT IS ALL BLANK! and the 3rd one is memorise of all the dates. WE'RE NO IMMORTALS!! this is crazy lar. i'm so dead..
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tomorrow is a maths chem and SS test! OMG..

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ok, the past two days was really pissing-ful.
then, i remembered this story that was read during frc, saying that we have 2 choices, choose to be happy or not. so yeah, i choose to be happy (:
but sometimes it's inevitable don't you think so? for example today's e maths quiz was so .... words could not describe it. hahas, 2 quizes, the 2nd quiz was blank except for a few ridiculous statements. haha, dear marcus kuek have not teach that topic, and we're like supposed to read up on it during the test? weird sense of humour..
the first quiz was stupid, cos me, cindy and esther were pracitcally having group discussion. pass paper here and there. wahaha. and cindy was like, three brains work better :D
tomorrow have physics test.. im quite ok with the starting part of moments le,.. only the part that he rushed trough today was luan4. and then, I LOST MY A MATHS HOMEWORK! Have to redo.. suay lar. seriously don't know where it flew to.
oh, and congrats to tracia and shengxian for getting first and fourth respectively.

reminder: choose to be happy (:

fuck, what the hell is factor theorem! I don't know anything about a maths or e maths! damn, im a sucker. im getting scolded for doing homework. COOl bet im the first hardworking person who gets scolded.
home is living hell,
and im fucking loving it, cos it makes my brain explodes and they could jolly well just pick up the peices of brain.
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Life's getting so boring, and mid years is coming about 2 weeks time?
I feel that things can change very fast hur, or maybe it's just another point of view, i dont know. I just know that all these things are making my head spoin like a merry-go-round.
I want to grow up, out of this child's world.
and know trapped in this kid's place that is meant for children below 15.
I'm bored,
really bored.
entertain me (:

Have you ever wondered how the world is formed? how humans even exist?
Are these existing theories true? Who was the first ever living creature on earth? and how did they come about?
i think these things a freaky and interesting. imagine one day, we learnt that we were fallen from the sky, or just pop out of nowhere. that'll will be so cool if we knew the truth one day (:
And then i wonder again, why were we made to think? to have emotions? to be different from others around us, to have a different personality? Why did God just copy and paste like some scanner to save time? Then maybe, things wouldnt be so complicated in life. Everyone willl have smiling faces looking at an exact same copy of themselves. fascinating.
and yah, the last question, so many people is thinking, when we die, wad will happen? but im more interested in how we even come about. ok, so,when we die, we will just float from our body and look at our dead self just one metre away? or will we just stop thinking, like some computer losing all the memory card?

okay, so one last thing, why do we even study for? im not opposing to studies., just thinking that some compulsary subjects we take at just redundant. Let's say mathematics, so wad if we know how to count and stufff, then wad does logarithms, indices, algebra help us in any way if we go for a career like design? we'll be like wasting our years of studying, all goes down to the drain, or the like flushing everything down the toiletbowl. cos we know that soon, all these would be totally forgotten.
im saying all these is just because im doing coordinate geometry now! and i don see the need to, burning so much of my braincells when i don understand anything. :/
im prepared to go for manymany detentions liaos. the teachers are just abusing their athority, and the VP seriously have nothing better to do. WIERD PEOPLE nowadays.

Today had dazu in the morning. Was so tired that i practically dragged my body to school today. and i slept at 9 plus yesterday night! ok, i admit, im a pig.
And so, dazu just zoomed by, after dazu when to eat. i now realised that feelings will fade. hatred also will fade. so yah, just live day by day :D
anyway, i had this thought just now, what's the point of getting into relationships at this age? it's kind of redundant, not that im against anyone in one right now. i just dont see the need to. ok, end of discussion. haha
MYE is coming, saturday practise is stopping, i will miss the seniors!
i will miss joel's cool way of hitting the drum! heee
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i miss Car'Line laughing with me at all the craps that came into our minds
i miss Steph chatting with me during MYE and EYE, and crying mindlessly together when it's over
i miss Jerome stealing my handphone and wallet every now and then. and saying im a gay who like 5566
i miss Yuguang distracting me from my studies, and taking my ezylink to see
i just miss studying together with these 4 (:

i miss Ivan's nonsense during lessons, and another softer side of him whom i love talking to
i miss Yixiang getting all shy and red in the face, and his constant sorrys which i don't think i will hear now
i miss Zongye getting all sexual with the guys, and high during miss cheong's lessons
i miss xieshern's paper that says:" LAUGH, CLAP"
i miss Chang Long's constant mad shouting that makes everyone laugh
i miss many many more, only im lazy to type anything else
i love my ohsofun 2 HM

When will things be just the way it is before? (:
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yesterday was very fulfilling (:
supposed to meet jiahong and company at sheng siong in the morning, in the end me, steph, car and geraldine decided to just go bugis ourselves. and they dint buy anything for me at sheng siong!! ): ): ):
so met they 3 at bugis, talked, crap, catch up on stuffs, and me and steph had to hear geraldine complain to carline. we were like.. -.-
Went to take neoprints! and i love those hahas, main reason because it's a long time since i took neos! im a busy girl :D






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And then, we made our way to lakeside.
went to sit with them throughout the sports day, cos they reserved a place for me =D hehe,
oh man, i think we're just lame crap, eileen's friend had this binoculars to spy on adriano opposite! omg, crap crap. hahas,
and so they say they spotted him, although i didnt. lols, according to them, he's wearing a black and white cap, sitting between two yellow guys and above the red and white temasek banner. LOL
after the sports meet, went back to GR, den we went to bugis to watch movie. we watch FIREWALL! i think that show is nice, although there were some parts that were chim.
So mama had to explain to me. hehe,

Going out with car and geraldine again today (: i miss HM-ers!

sudewo, arent you happy that i updated? haha, pon-er, work hard for mid years! it's coming, even JOANE LING is paying attention in class now. (: miss you sexay.

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ok, i think im just bored.

Yesterday had CO, i think it's improving.. that's a start (:

after CO went to kallang to "study" geog. hahas, end up crapping and laughing most of the time. Tenghui is LAME! I can't believe such clever person could talk so much crap, lol. impressive.
We were so noisy that Yiqing can't stand us and wouldnt friend us anymore. hahah,
she went to sit with joel and sylvia instead. i took tenghui's physics worksheet to try try, and i was like.. how to do? for every question. pathetic me ):
To think mid year is coming when we just finished our CT. The school wants us to die from exhaustion. Tomorrow have chem and geog test, and i can't seem to study. someone please inspire me!
And so, i left earlier cos my father come fetch me. when to century square to eat. bought a new bag. woots. but i think it's stupid, why i use my own money my mother must give so many comments about it. arghx.

so ok, i think i shall go study already. CIAOZ

My class was invaded by terrorists with fire extinguishers.
So everyone's tables and chairs were covered in sulphur. when we cleaned it, water+sulphur = sulphuric acid. H2SO4.
Mid-year is coming so soon! I WANT TO DIE! Stressed up like shit.
CO's also taking up a lot of my time, not that im complaining just that u hope i can cope both equally well.
So, yesterday i slept from 6 plus to 9 plus. and it wasnt intentional, i was only pretending to sleep, end up sleeping like a PIG. and i woke up and was like. WTH! why the 9pm show so fast show?! hahaha. i feel so slack
So i tried accessing to Heymaths, but couldnt get in, msged me kwek, and it dint help. so i just did the homework with the help of testbook. And was so proud of myself when i complete all the homework! first time this year~! I'm so happy. lol
but i know this wont last, cos here i am slacking again. Too tired to do anything, SOMEONE MOTIVATE ME!
I have no face to show my CT marks, hahas, Che yu was like, if you dont buck up, you will really die le. hahaha, HE ADVISED ME! cool. lols,
hopes tmr's dazu goes well x)
SYONARA(:

My life seems to be so cramped up nowadays.
After CT, new challenges awaits.
I wonder when my life will spice up into something really exciting..
anticipating for that day to come....
:/

anw, got back e maths paper today.
ok, im pure stupid as expected.
and miss ng confiscated my ezylink card.
2nd thing since last thurs she confiscated something from me.
and WOOTS.!
my father gonna write a official complain letter.
cool to have a father working for the society.
but it's only letter for the ezylink card, not the phone ):
he say:" WHAT IF MY DAUGHTER DONT HAVE THE MONEY TO GO HOME?! IS SHE GOING TO CAMP IN SCHOOL?" wahaha
and he is making me pretend that im broke today.
which is... so not true.. but whatever,
im just pissed with the whole school system now.
what detention?! detention where got one time 20-30 plus ppl seating at the foyer.
totally lame, like wad zhiwen say, abusing of power.
the previous detention that i and cindy went, we even could tour around the school 3-4 times!!
pathetic system
poor security
retards.

I'm feeling so tired lar.. want to study so much.. but there's just too many things to do.
CO night is coming up, .. mid-year is around the corner, .. the season of hivernation seems to be catching up on me. and im just tired of rushing against the ticktock ticktock sound.
it's annonying.
i dont want things to happen so fast around me. such a hectic life!
i want some memories that one day 10 years from now, i will be looking back and marvel at my memories and experience. (:
everyday i look at the homework, i just feel like tearing everything to bits.
and i hate to copy, what will it benefit me?.. i dont know.. ok, unless is those kind of dumb and useless stuff like zuo ye. it's a total waste of time doing it. but sometimes.. it's just inevitable,
there are just too many things to do but too little time!
sheldon is right.. i want 48 hours a day. so that can sleep more. ZZzZzz

ok,.. maybe i shall sleep now.. maybe i shall do some homework,.. or maybe i shall lian4 my ruan.. whatever it is... i fell SO TIRED. ! :/
syonara!

Today morning had to go to school for comm meeting.
daddy woke me up, den i kicked him. lols.
still im dreamland, maybe i was dreaming about the GIGANTIC NUT so i kicked you.
hahaha, anyone who watched ice age 2 should know, right cindy?
lols, ok so i went to school and took the badges from my locker.
gave biscuits to jamie and ningmao and we happily strolled to cca block. LOL
meeting was of cos about co night. DUH,
continue continued.. blah blah, ( tian ji bu ke tou lu )
but one thing was really true, about the disiplinary.
i guess.. things will be better if discipline was enforced.
And khang leng scolded everyone today,
i think she lost her patience.
so anw, CO practise commerce, with the seniors coming back to help out.
i still cant get the E flat diao that whole chunk.
gotta practise real hard already/
so happy that sheng long said he could come and practise with me on wednesday.
dont want him to luo4 hou4, i know the feeling of getting scolded by teacher, it aint nice.
i think Joel and Weisheng beat the drum damn cool. MAN~
lols, i hope i dont see weisheng's father already. ltr he ask me whether i got see his son in school again. -.-
and fred had nothing to do after practice, keep calling me but PRETENDED not to. nvm, shall play along lor. hahaha.
miss the seniors lar.. although there werent much interaction between us, but it feels confortable seeing them again.
OH! and ching kee gave me his self-made perfume. nicenice. even my mother said it was nice. so i wont use it to spray the toilet.
jiaqing wanted to eat my prata.
he's one really nice "gangster" hahas.
let's hope CO will improve! if not we're gonna have a tough time nex year during SYF. i can sense it. i reckon everyone can sense it too. even joel.
kays, gotta eat apple.
an apple a day keeps the doctor away (: