sadrandomness

I thought things had changed for the better, but i guess happy things aren't supposed to last long?
Pms, stress, whatever, i just dont feel good.

Yesterday had dazu. Was so-so but, haiy, not enough luh.
Then went boon chai's shop dont know do what. After tenghui's xiaoke i need to go already. So went home lo. hahaha

Geog common test is like tomorrow and i haven't started studying. DANG.
very tired, wanted to sleep but the stupid sun barbequed my butt. aye so sian so sian so sian.
This is s dumb post, thankyou and see you again (:

Chinese New Year :D

Happy Chinese New Year! :D


Yesterday had mass bainian at CO people's house. Was fun (: haha, first was zhiwen's house. We did a really funny video there. lol, can't wait to see the outcome after the background music is put in. Then we went alfred's house. His brother Edwin is so cute! He keep snorting like a pig haha. Their parents so xin fu, all boys, if is my parents they sure very happy one hur. and they denied that alfred was shuai! omg, sheng zai fu zhong bu zhi fu! Played black jack there, and they all won money except me! i have bad luck. tsk.
HAHA. next was liang yu's house. we played twister! haha, and we twisted our limbs and bones. the worst thing is, we're addicted to it. Mingda is the all time champion.
Then we went Mingda's house. His dogs all so scary, freaking big. And he keep emphasizing that the smaller dog is a she, even open the legs to justify-.- pervert. LOL
Last house we went was Jessica's house. At first we were complaining how come must walk so long and lucky our house now like that, but WOW, when we reached the house, it was like so BIG. i want that house! lol. although i got go houses that are very much bigger; swimming pool, basketball court, garden, pool table etc, but her house very nice! forgot to go the rooftop though. so we stayed there very very long playing DDR, some car racing game and twister. hahas,
i dont feel like graduating so fast anymore!!

Last of all, my mum was in a good mood ytd! haha, so kind to come fetch me and not scold me for staying so late. haha, so i today so guai come home early early (: heee.
Friday got 3 tests! so gonna die.
and common test is next next week. CANT THE SCHOOL LET ME ENJOY MY SWEET SIXTEEN?!

p.s anyone wanna watch protege? i want watch!! xD

abnormal day

Although ytd i wasn't really myself, it's fun fun fun!
hahaha and long teng was super cool !
went marina supposedly to watch movie, but spent the day at the arcade and talking at esplanade instead. saw so many people at marina; wushu people zixiang and chek kai's class and weilin wanting.
did a lot of stupid things ytd, so i went to sleep super early so that the not-so-me day would be over.
happy chinese new year eve!

And my birthday is reaching! wheeeee..
and so is common test ):

back stage crew ! : 1 2 3 4 5 6

O lvl chinese was pretty bad.
okay, it was really bad. shan't talk about it.
i promised myself + * that i will study hard. ha, but i guess it won't work.
thanks to the few idiots i have as family.
rarrrh.. wth, min ru agreed to tutor me on saturday. whee, but i think it'll be her watching me study. haha, that's good enough for me :D

three cheers ^^

Stupid today.
knocked my head on the shoe rack while getting my shoe.
pain like banana.
ouch.

Went to CO room for nothing today. SIAN. no time study for binomial and geog test already. and we have a co family tree that is completely retarded. haha.

tired.tired.tired
goodnight

another Sat practice

had a very interesting CO convo yesterday :D

Today had CO, fenzu first and then the reviewing of our rehearsal performance. Minyuan is so cute. ha, she love hugging my mr skeleton and grins to herself when she sees i brought it. ok so dazu was soon over and then waited for them to practise finish LongTeng. it's pretty messy still,.. i think? anw, we walked out and i felt very sian and feel like sleeping. when home sleep until five plus, bathe and all. And then talked to Esther on the phone. she's stranded alone at Changi Airport. hahaha

ahh.. im on a boat with a hole. Water gushes in through the tiny hole. I tried using scotch tape and the tape tears. I tried using my knee to block the water, and the wood of the boat cracks, leading to a bigger hole. HELP(?)
HAHA that was pretty much what the conversation with esther was about for the last 5, 10 mins. lol.

cheerios!
the cup is half full (:

I'm like so bothered now. Tried doing binomial, but failed to do even one question. Then think of things i know i shouldn't be thinking so i started staring into space. and so i surfed from blogspot to google to wordpress to yahoo.
I really should stop making myself so troubled. haha. okay end with a pic.

no CO ??

Have been thinking about this these days:
How would things be like when we graduate from CO ?
no more CO seems so wierd, everyday go home study for o levels. Although sometimes CO's a little sian and quite qian bian, but sometimes, it's quite fun.
It'll just be so boring without anything to commit ourselves in, and then there'll no longer be any $10 per touch kind hitting of drums, no more eating out, no more playing music together.
OLEVELS are so sian.
a few more weeks to SYF, few more months before we step down. SO LITTLE TIME.
anyone interested in study groups after we step down? xD

anw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON (:
and tmr will be VROOM caroline's birthday.
so HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAR'LINE:D muacks <3

i remember last year, someone told me guys mature at the end of sec 3, but how come i see so many still acting so immaturely and saying malice jokes. disappointing.
does boys develop slower nowadays? cos my pri 5 brother is no better and acts like a spoilt kid. With him around, going home everyday would be a torture. i couldn't even study at home ! Even have to help him do his homework. so i tonight dont have to sleep already, must rush my homework. so, no CO a few more months would be torturous. or rather, a few more weeks CO will stop. So people, study group study group !! (:

ZzZZz

Yesterday went shopping with ivan and yixiang for present and ivan's new year clothes. yx was late, so we sat at polar eat. ivan's treat. rich kid alr luh. lol
Walked around for very very long, going inside shops to say stupid things and finally got presents. After that went play pool at katong. i just laze around and watch them compete. damn funny.
On the way home, ivan taught us how to dian4 girls. He's like so jerk luh. wlao... LOL
but it was funny, cos he dian4 successfully. hehxD

Today had rehearsal, had a few hours of practice before preparing and heading for SCH. terrible, the sheng was left on the bus and so there's only 1 sheng playing. haiy, ..
suan le, ming4 zhu4 ding4 de.
hahas, went back to school and me tenghui and dianwen went to carry the few percussion instruments back to the CO room. so tiring. went back CO room all sweaty seeing everyone lying on the CO floor so shuang. sian diao.

went home after that (:

realised i hate 4 actions that some people do :

-announced to the whole world what you did yesterday, when what and how.

-interrupt our conversation with no idea what we are talking about and pretend to know and end up embarrassing yourself by saying the wrong thing

-voice your opinions when no one even asked for it.

-think you have the right to be at somewhere when no one even asks you to; ask for details time place and date of a hangout without any invitation from anyone.

not pointing to anyone, on general, these kind of behaviour is absolutely positively annoying. These people thinks that the world revolves around them but sadly no.

thankyou for your understanding and cooperation.
please and thanyous (:

Stressed out by all the tests the teachers been bombarding us with. Today a maths was dang easy, because i paid 100% attention in class and studied for this chapter. But tomorrow's tests would be a disaster, - last year's chapters. Am i dead or what.
Sound & General waves properties + statistics & cumulative frequency.
wish me good luck, i'm gonna flunk it like no one's business. not like i can help it, tried to study but understand only 10% of the shit. so how? leave my fate to god. amen.

just another abnormal weekend

Yesterday went for CO. very normal stuff followed by auditions. yay, i feel proud of my dear juniors. they just got in and can play quite well already:D jiayou !

walked out for prata, lol, all of us getting mr skeleton bags. except jingwen getting miss rabbit. hahas, haiy, i'd rather have one without the face, it looks kindof scary. but dont have le. ):
went homw to change and went to jack's wedding dinner. they so sweet. heh. but the food was pretty bad.. LOL
i've been having triple eyelids since ytd, and today it became triple. BUT I DID SLEEP SOUNDLY THE WHOLE NIGHT ! gosh, i look like monster. haha.

four tests next week and i haven't did any studying. A little lazy plus dont know which to start first. hahaha. reminder to self: SEC FOUR THIS YEAR!
but before the mugging begins, SYF comes first! i hope we can get our first gold-with-honours. we can and we will.

Happy Birthday to Jessica, Dianwen and Huirong !
as what seniors always say: KUAI4 GAO1 ZHANG3 DA4!


belated prezzies for you guys, haha. gotta get caroline's one too. yays ! Can celebrate birthdays together lo ! missed them hell a lot :D
2007 have been really busy. paid a little more attention in class, and talk more crap with sheng xian too. RUAN JING TIAN is cute. owen xD so there's homework, tests, homework, tests and more tests tests tests and homeworks. Sec four is the transformation of becoming a nerd. MY weekends are gonna be not weekends anymore. Soon....

tomorrow after dazu can't stay for long. Go home prepare for wedding dinner, plus all the tests i got to study for. saddening. laughed like mad today in school, im a crazy girl. HAHA. for some reason i dont know either, i always do stupid and retarded stuff in front of esther and cin and they'll laugh like there's no tomorrow. im not a clown people ! no wonder different people have different views about me, when the bees fly low, im mad, whent the bees fly high im dull. NAH, there's other reasons to that, but why should i tell you? bwahah.

spastic -.-

secondary school days will soon be over ! although i often wished i could quick zoom out of this nightmare zone, i would miss so so many people. besties car,steph, ivan,yx, esther cindy, my dear juniors. okay, shan't say all these, it's still january for god's sake! lol.
i miss the seniors ! i miss them when they were... erm.. younger. HAHA ! growing up makes us grow more apart. ): sad things of life. maybe someday i can find and unite everyone from my pri 1 class xD

ANGER RIPPED THROUGH ME LIKE A SHRAPNEL
ANGER SHOT LIKE A POISON DART INTO MY BLOODSTREAM
MY STOMACH IS KNOTTED IN ANGER

I AM ANGRY.

I'm an asshole, i will get 30 points for L1R5. I'm lazy and i dont study. Tuition defeats the purpose for me, i will still fail and get 30 points for L1R5. I'm an asshole. CO takes all my time. I'm doomed to failure. i can't even graduate from chung cheng. i will get 30 points for L1R5. $280 x 24 months is a good use of money for darling boy while $180 is a waste of money on an asshole like me.

FUCK YOU.

Had been lazy to blog these days. stomach flu is all well again (:

Going to school have become really tiring, trying to pay attention during lessons and all, plus switching off during e maths lessons. i know i shouldnt, but toh lay hoon's voice is annoying! why must mr kwek run away, despite what all other people say about him, i think he teaches the best. as compared to toh -.-

CO practices is now 3 times a week, really do hope we can improve, and not like what boon chai says, we're not even to gold standard. so demoralising.

i found duckmon! my pri 4 good friend. haha, 5 years leh, so surprising. heh, wong yintak. he changed like super a lot. xinyi said : ___________________________ HAHA

thinking of having tuition. should i??


okay, this post is super rojak and random
good day everyone!

ahh~... faint

the past 2 days were like hell.
tuesday morning almost fainted in the mrt, but i scared no one come save me. the whole world became like a spoilt tv, become very very dark, with white spots like when a tv spoils. The entire body was so wobbly that i couldnt stand still, so i just squatted like an idiot at the mrt floor.
hell freaked out. i thought i was going blind.
took cab to school after that cos that day's period was super important plus got CO. lesson time was trying super duper hard to pay attention, but the body was... sour.

today went school, stomach got problem. feels like a group of 50 people are bbq-ing in my stomach, and the smoke is gagging me. went to library with jamie after school, super super super not feeling well. but yah, cannot fan2 hui3. haiy,
WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME!

not going to school tmr alr. tried doing the homework that have to be passed up tmr, but the really feel like puking ! urgh, im getting pissed with my damn body. help(?)

Went shopping yesterday and today to get mummy's dress for the coming wedding. She bought me a top (: black with turqoise pokka dots. HAHA dont have my size, so they're sending my size over and gonna collect it next week (:

Yesterday walked from citylink den went to orchard walk for the whole night. My feet hell pain. When i was so so so so freaking tired, some idiot go scare me when i was going home. hahaha. that idiot is min ru. (see i blogged about you! xD) actually i was too blur and tired to realised who it was. heh,
so, i continue blogging about you. MIN RU MIN RU MIN RU MIN RU MIN RU MIN RU MIN RU must make sure the min and the ru is separated one. hahaha :/

i'll blog the cliche way, why all other people blog about other people kind of way. how they meet, yada yada, process yada yada. ok, you get the point.

once upon a time, strepsils was being created. and strepsils brought us together, and we both know each other as senior and junior. ho, she's a slacker who dont go for xiaozu. But her skills are like superb, learnt it since she was a small fishball, dont go also nevermind one. She's like one great senior, everything also help you and stuff. best of all, she lives at simei too, so go school with her. haha. i love the grownup pretty fishball now (:

continued...
got closer to her when SYF audition nears, cause she taught me during the senior junior teaching sessions. Dont know why so suay, everytime scissors papers stone and she's stuck with me. HAHA. And she's a fierce teacher, keep asking me why i so hungry, everytime eat up the egg. xD and then got a period of time she, me and jamie will walk out of sch after dazu then go take neoprints at bugis. ha ha , those were the days. then some things happens, and we got even closer. everymorning eat at wanton mee stall with fredrick and maybe yanghao. now the stall is closed ): yeah, that's about it. I'm so glas we're still in contact even after she graduates. <3lovelove

And we always have the same thoughts feelings about things/people etc etc. And even if we dont utter a word, it still feel right, because nothing is needed to be said. Secondary school life are like one of the down period of times in her life i bet, but hey, you're optimistic and happy! that's good you know. hahas, continue to be like that, but if you ever need to break out of that shell, I'm always here:D you've seen the ugliest state I've been in, so let me see yours! LOL
Many many years down the road, i hope to talk about everything under the sun with you anyhow. best mummy ever; muacks!

CHEERIOS <3

31Dec2006- last day of the year.
These 365 days weren't well-spent, but it's worth the memories.
there's CO night for a start (: the night which we worked really hard for:

and then there's Cindy and Esther going through the year with me;

There's also OBS! got to know really nice people; xinying,chanxi,zixiang,adeline,christina (:

catching up with my beloved Serene while we mug for Eoys was fun too. She just called me for a sleepover at her place, wished i could go. Wanna spend the last moments of 2006 with her.

2007 there'll be no more seniors, no more yiqing to accompany me, no more weilin wanting to buy us snacks, no more tingkai shunta to talk crap, no more anyone to look after us.
Year 2007 will be a tough year. Gonna be SYF, and then o levels and then im going to graduate ! Head off to a new life, a different direction, and reminisce about secondary school days.

CAMP(:

back from camp!

slept around 2 hours before campday plus no sleep the next night leads to a throbbing headache + fever. but Joel's panadol did wonders (: ha ha

was station master for bowling game, had fun disturbing the groups with forfeits and their cheers. ho, i like the shuai dao, sexy dao cheer. wahaha, i bet Mingda does too. lol

*fastforward to nightwalk*

starting we 4 (me,songyun,estelli,clarence) were freaked out and didn't dared to go up the dnt block due to some.. erm.. sounds. and Clarence's descriptions and explanations. but after going up with junyuan and quentin, dnt block doesn't seem as scary as before, but still scary. but thank goodness for the twoway lights all around the block or we will be afraid. anw, first 3 groups we were still not warmed up and sure how to scare them. ha, but by the 4th group, we decided to go into the toilet to scare them, and i pulled clarence along with me. how to expect me to be inside alone?! i'll just freak out. haha, so here's roughly what we did, one of us will throw the doll down onto them, and then just walk out and pretend that that's all we have to scare them, and ask them to sign the paper behind. den the other person will scare them when they walk out. We were like to happy when the first group screamed really loud. super funny . hahaha, jessica's group and jingwen's group were the most rewarding. heh :D

estelli also had fun scaring the groups, she became really brave. lol.

while waiting for the groups we got bored and entertained ourselves listening to the retarded conversation having through the walkie talkies and playing truth or dare. and of cos, who will dare to play dare when in nightwalk???????

after nightwalk felt so shagged and handicapped. and i think i forgot how to sleep cos i cant get to sleep for the 3rd time. and that's the reason im blogging at 10.44pm now without even sleeping since i've came back from camp. xD nvm, still have one more of joel's panadol. heee.

thanks the seniors for coming back and lending a helping hand esp. at nightwalk and the games before breakcamp. :D xie xie ni men !!

sec 2s good job, xin ku ni men le. learn from the mistakes this time and do a better job next time yeah. (:

morning met the juniors in school for camp stuffs, the games are quite interesting in a sense; jiayou (: !

After that went to boon chai's shop with tania, eunice, shiwee and mingda. took a cab there and ho, junyuan paid for one cab. surprising eh? haha mingda taught me guitar!, but i'm still a retard with it. haiy, guitars are so cool. then md and th got so fascinated by the empire conquer game that wenjie was playing. -.- den we headed for suntec walkwalk, me,tania,md,th.

had a good talk, very funny. nightwalk's gonna be fun and i reckon the whole camp will be lah.

Went for payco concert, it's interesting luh, never see before such a concert. haha, quite cool. den went suntec with mum and dad. My parents are such kids when they quarrel! O.o hilarious.

holidays are almost over!

re-exams are over! ha ha to all those that have it tomorrow. xD
today rained for practically the whole day, dont like the rain. stupid rain.
been drenched for 3 times, it's like coming out of a shower without any towel to clean, irritating !
oh, how i hate the rain.
there's still so much homework to be done, and i dont think im going to start anytime soon, or even at all. ha ha ha.

i think i'm having amnesia or something, cos i can't remember wad hapened for the past few days since i've blogged. hmmm.. ytd was "studying" with esther, went liu xing's house den went citylink eat thai express. first time i felt the curry was damn spicy. must be cos of the cough and flu. lol. okay, what else...
i forgot.

12 days since i've blogged..
and i forgot what i did for the past 12 days.
oh, there's jerome's church thing. :/
urgh
i give up.
my brain is deterioting (is that how you spell it?)

ok, so the smart joane is going library with the i-love-rain jamie tmr.
woots! library!!!
dang, HOLIDAYS ARE ALMOST OVER!

sian..

it's been long since i've blogged. lazyness got the better of me :D
I'm grounded ! staying at home since saturday. that's 4 DAYS!
recount last time i was out:
ms tay's house for gathering. was quite fun, watched horror film, den there's a break in between, toilet break. kai chun went in, we turned off the light, i think he was freaked out. and screamed that he scared of dark. HAHA, darn hilarious.

urgh.. why no one wants to go to library !
im bored.. ):

OBS first steamboat outing !

(edit)
i have a baluku thanks to gerald for jumping the rope without me. ): gaaa
i think interaction was quite nice though we dint play bridge, heh. but dao teng and gerald was nice enough to run and get cards for us. ha ha. oh, and the biscuits were horrendous. *puke* QQ haven sent me the story of the murder. :/

steamboat was fun fun fun fun fun !!!
ha ha ha, shared a table with the guys, actually wanted sheares and kimsan, but aye, who cares? S&K equally rocks :D
so here goes, there were me, xinying, wee ming, jacques, chek kai, yixiang, bryan, guoxiang, zongye and zixiang and then there were jamie, joy, nana, yijun, adeline shuhua and wanning.dint get to enjoy the good food from the other table though, lol, but ours not bad too what. heh, xD
it was jacques birthday, so joy, jamie shuhua and I bought this Bridge "King" belt for him. ha, and wee ming wanted "queen".
enjoyed thoroughly ytd; those prawns jumping, crab hitting, egg BEATING, and crabs/prawns idiocity, all made up the fun.

but...
have to start studying..
SOON..
i hope. haha

my energy level went down after playing the last round of bridge ytd. ha, laughed too much. so, it's nothing really yeah? heh,
looking forward to another outing. woots!
cheerios (:

I've been dragging a new post for so long, just because I wanna see the obs picture. ha ha ha
Went to play for ms tay's wedding ytd night, was cool to see so many teachers there; esp. ambert khoo and mr lee. lol, mr khoo was so suave with his formal wear, and mr lee cute in his pyjamas. LOL.
it was quite a flop, but who knows? haha, no one bothers anyway. hear some music and they're fine with it. heh,
hoho, and it was my first time seeing mr fredrick lai wearing a tuxedo. woots, shuai. and funny. hahaha
went to eat after that, chatted and did stupid stuff. ha, i miss having performances where all of us are together. (:

and gosh, we still can't settle the date for the obs outing. AHHH.

OBS; Shears !

outward bound singapore/ benjamin SHEARES !

these 4 days 3 nights was such a wonderful period of time. really wanna thank all of Shears for the wonderful memories (:

At first, Shears was like a bunch of restless people. Everyone's sian that Liew is rattering so much useless stuff. But everyone soon warmed up when we built the raft. hoho, we made such a great team and made the best raft ever ! We didn't sink; ha ha ha. Fun to pretend to capsize and climb back on again. Gosh, I so love Shears.

We went for jetty jump after paddling so hard. It was scary, but FUN !
bathed, dinner and briefing for rock climbing, den back to bunk. Zi xiang hid in the cardboard to avoid being raped by zongye. Played bridge ! It was super fun and taught chanxi and xin ying how to play. thanks to tenghui who taught me how to play before i went for obs. ha, Chanxi is our da jie da. went back to our bunk to talk for quite a while. ha, attention to all taxi drivers, never drop a passenger beside a drain. ;) Zong ye soon came to hunt for zi xiang, he took the blanket and hid under it. Damn funny. Zy found him, then they cannot sleep, so they went to wash clothes. When zi xiang got out of the girls bunk, 3 secs later he ran in and shouted, faster faster ! come see! And there we saw bryan and kent sleeping together. lol.

Next day was rock climbing. ha, okay i admit i was lazy and lousy to make it to the top, left 3 more squares and I stopped. heh.Went to pack for the expedition to camp 2 next, carried the row of water bottles with zi xiang. Damn tiring, but Zi xiang is nice enough to carry most of the load. Reached camp 2 with aching arms and back. Then did a little of kayaking practice, the mangrove waters were... YUCK. den we practised capsizing. ha ha, our patner kayak was chang hong's group. when we finally used all our energy to climb back on the kayak, they pushed us down again !! LOL, but they got retribution, cos they fell in themselves twice. Kana scolded by Shukor. haa.

Went to find the toilet, asked 3 instructors, and they were darn cute. All of them pointed at 3 different directions. Cartoonish. The guys plus some of the girls went to set up our tent while others went to wash mass tins and make dinner. ok, rice was BAD, tastes like stale biscuits. lol, but it looked so nice! LOOKS CAN BE DECEIVING (:

ho, i couldnt finish my rice, zi xiang ate my rice. haha, xin ying was right, he eats like a horse, although he looks like monkey. again, looks can be deceiving. After that briefing about the kayaking expedition the next day, den went to sleep. squeezed in the tent, had a little sleep talk convo with chek kai while sleeping. ha ha Zongye was saying he can't make out what we were saying, and our back were facing each other. hohoho

Third day; kayaking ! me, xinying and zhiwen one kayak. tired, but was worth it. trained muscles! Zongye's kayak held on to us for 200 m before we found out cos Chanxi was like : " Joane, do you find your kayak very difficult to move?" Zhiwen! why did you let it happen! lol. then at Chek kawa, it rained really heavily and all of us on the small island cuddled together behind the poncho to shelter from the cold wind. We finished our expedition within 6 hours plus! FAST? ho, we're macho dudes. trekked back to campsite 1(our grand palace) and went for night activity! finally there's something planned for us at night. we crawled through the tunnel. really dark and i couldnt see a single thing except for some white pokka dots which i assume it's my hallucination. heh, was fascinating how we found the exit. Shears rock ! when we reached the exit, we had the head count,counted till 13 and then there was no answer. so everyone shouted. ZI XIANG ! haha ! thought he was lost or something. end up was that he was blocking chang hong's group from finding the exit. SPASTIC.

Our last night at obs, played cards till everyone of shears slept except for me and Chanxi. Yijun, jolyn, nana, adeline they all were playing Cheat, and they play until damn excited and loud! pure madness. and some gay instructor carrying a turtle soft toy came in to warn us about the noise level. heh. after everyone slept, we went to Kim san's bunk to play with them. played to 3, den had no choice but to sleep,. everyone's seem to be so tired. haha, anthony was funny, i still dont know whether he was sleep talking or was he awake. haha, totally hilarious.

went to sleep and the bed seems to be swaying left to right, squeezed my eyes real tight to stop the dizzyness.

LAST DAY !! did high elements and it was hell fun!! me and xinying were patners. Someone told us we were the first girls to try climbing out of all the groups. forgot who, honoured. but i was a little uneasy at first lah, thanks to xinying and chanxi my belayer, we did it! i climbed up to the top without being scared. [: and chek kai for telling me the instructions and directions to climb.

zi xiang and zong ye managed to climb up this really difficult obstacle, amazing. zi xiang the legendary monkey. LOL

me and xin ying waited damn long to climb the middle obstacle. it was damn tiring, esp the rock wall. scaled myself up, den i sat on the log for a little while, so shuang. haha, while xinying climbed higher. ha, sorry ): rested until zi xiang gave me the : still rest !! face. climbed again, at the rope part, im alr out of energy alr, so dint bother to climb all the way till stand on the top, so came down. ACCOMPLISHED! hoho, we rock.

All of us were so excited to see populated singapore again. When we see high rise biuldings, everyone cheers. and when the guys saw lamp posts, they were going : woah! lamp posts leh !! " went to hougang mall and talked a lot. so glad to drink coke again. chanxi and I sat bus 72 back to tampines, but sat the wrong side! we sat all the way to ang mo kio! dumb us. i miss obs...

Xinying, Chanxi, Zhiwen, Yijun, Jolyn, Adeline, Christina, Chek kai, Zongye, Zi xiang, Yixiang, Mint Hong and Kent.

We all made this camp so memorable. 3 cheers for Shears ! "WE LOVE YOU LIEW ! "

Long post.. but i want to narrate all that happened, cos even when few years down the road, i wanna keep all these memories.

BYE BYE OBS.hello, back to my life and reality.

Put eight monkeys in a room. In the middle of the room is a ladder, leading to a bunch of bananas hanging from a hook on the ceiling. Each time a monkey tries to climb the ladder, all the monkeys are sprayed with ice water, which makes them miserable.
Soon enough, whenever a monkey attempts to climb the ladder, all of the other monkeys, not wanting to be sprayed, set upon him and beat him up.
Soon, none of the eight monkeys ever attempts to climb the ladder. One of the original monkeys is then removed, and a new monkey is put in the room.
Seeing the bananas and the ladder, he wonders why none of the other monkeys are doing the obvious, but, undaunted, he immediately begins to climb the ladder. All the other monkeys fall upon him and beat him silly.
He has no idea why. However, he no longer attempts to climb the ladder.
A second original monkey is removed and replaced. The newcomer again attempts to climb the ladder, but all the other monkeys hammer the crap out of him. This includes the previous new monkey, who, grateful that he's not on the receiving end this time, participates in the beating because all the other monkeys are doing it. However, he has no idea why he's attacking the new monkey.
One by one, all the original monkeys are replaced. Eight new monkeys are now in the room. None of them have ever been sprayed by ice water. None of them attempt to climb the ladder.
All of them will enthusiastically beat up any new monkey who tries, without having any idea why.

Sadly, humans are just like monkeys.
Life's like that isn't it? monkey see monkey do.

Screwed up

MY PARENTS ARE IRRESPONSIBLE IDIOTS !
arranged parent meeting tmr with miss anisa, and now wanna cancel it, what are they?! kings and queens??
dad have work, ok fine, so dont say yes in the first place. and the other idiot, reason for not going: bro sit, stay at home and be his 24 hour maid.
WTF .
" my baobei sick, i must stay at home look after him". Can't she just let him stay at home for just few hours in the morning ?! He's your baobei, what, im your dog ?
it's just really bad for miss anisa ok, she compromise to make it on saturday alr, and yet, for some stupid reason you want me to call her to cancel it.
damn you, can't you be more responsible?!
Why only think of your BAOBEI and make things difficult for others. gosh, i really hate you.
He just have some fever, what's the big deal ? you have to attend to his every call? even clean his butt when he shit? MIND YOU, HE'S ALREADY 10 YEARS OLD, PRIMARY FOUR !
I dont see you bothering about me when i'm sick, i'm always left alone at home sleeping and staring at 4 walls.
and now, how the hell can i call anisa.

i hate this screwed up family.

please, anyone keep me busy outside tomorrow.
let me help out at the wedding of whatever, i just need OUT of this damned "home"

School is so tiring.

I'm so tired already, really want to break free of those things that disrupt my life.
These things include one that goes around finding trouble for me; a spoilt fat egoistic *custard - my brother.
dang, he makes up like 80% of my daily miseries. You dont have the slightest idea how i hate him:/
Just one day back to school made me so exhausted, everything's bombarding me like some chain of missiles; it's even worst than EOYs.
I am tired. TIRED !

Emaths proj is stupid, i dont understand a thing.

CO open house

Had open house today, our freelance was not bad seh. ha ha ha
but didn't get to play the usual songs we play during open house, was craving for william tell. hee
after open house slacked at concourse, then went back to CO room with Joel cos he wanted to take back his gu bang. played the scissors paper stone split thingy, and tenghui can only open his leg about 1.5m wide. lol.

went back to concourse, ALONE; thanks to joel who didn't want to go with us in the end. saw Eronne(?) [ how to spell ? ] on the way and asked why like never see him going for CO practices anymore, thought he quitted or something.
then he replied : why ? you want see me isit? (cheeky grin)
omg, i think juniors are so thickskinned nowadays. ha ha
or did i do that to laoda and fredrick too? nono, cannot be :O
went back, tiffy and fred started playing hai dai, 5 10 15 and hei bai pei. who lose must drink water. damn funny/

went suntec for dinner with : fred,tiffy,minru,sylvia,zhiyin,yiqing,liang yu,zhiwen and pengyan
funny; i think we might will be banned from gg nydc next time. everyone was looking at us about 98% of the time ! fred even took the monster toy to pose with. and he hit on the waitress name Ruby.

went home, and a lizard bungee jump on my head ! damn gross, i spent so long scrubbing my head in the toilet. YUCK, lizards are the most disgusting creature on earth. I HATE THEM LUH.

oo oo, one more thing, saw mr kuek and serene lee together at suntec. tsk tsk , his face grew tomato red. cute mar. HA HA HA !

this is the IQ question that joel gave us :
there are 10 bottles, each bottle contain many pills. only 1 bottle contain poisonous pills. 1 normal pill weighs 1g, 1 poisonous pill weighs 1.1 gram. if you're only allowed to use the weighing machine to weigh once, how do you determine which bottle contains poisonous pills ?

"shopping" for OBS

Ho ho ho. Today was the touring around cityhall day with jamietan.
went to beach road first, end up not finding the place because i was too excited seeing the BIG umbrella; it was raining. so took a cab, the taxi driver was like, are you sure you guys wanna take my car? cos it's just behind (and he points behind) . i bet jamie was like -.-lll cos that was what i did, ha ha. but sat the cab anyway. lol

reached there, bought fire starter, nylon cord and somehow jamie managed to psycho me to buy the slippers. then we headed off for Suntec, the bus driver asked us to board the bus and i just silly board the bus. HAHA
went carefour buy FBT pants, den walked around, jamie bought her tee, den headed for bugis
laid my eyes on this long sleeve shirt, man, I LIKE ! ):

legend of the pantless kid

- On the MRT today, some kids were playing a fool with their parents, hanging on the supporting bar; then a small girl just went up to a little boy's leg who is hanging on the bars and pulled his pants down. It was hell hilarious, it went all the way down and his little thingy just pop out. OBSCENE.
The girl ran to her mother and began squealing and crying and the boy cried too. She cried so loudly and almost vomitted, but.. isn't the boy the victim? Why in the world is she squealing.
I just hate squeals.
It was funny while it lasted, entertaining.

- I like this skin, it looks cute.

- Had o'level chinese today, it wasn't that easy, but definitely easier than HCL. Still, A1 is just impossible for me, not even an A2. And was thinking, how did people attained the ability to conjure up masked feelings and portray it as if it's real; I could never do that, everything shows on my face.
Oh well, here's one for thoughts:

We wear the mask that grins and lies,

It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes,

This debt we pay to human guile;

With torn and bleeding hearts we smile,

And mouth with myriad subtleties.

linking life with just a game: BRIDGE

I decided not to do the quiz, haha. sorry angelina, kind of long and when paste on blogger, it all stick together, very difficult to do.

im proud to say, I've grown up. thanks to the past years, and those wonderful people around me at that time, anything that comes upon me doesnt seem to be as bad anymore. A thunderstorm is like a light drizzle to me. What's the big deal?

it's like playing a game, ( i learnt how to play bridge today:D ) at first, I will choose the wrong patner, but after a round, i will manage to choose the right one. i lost because i chose teng hui instead of jamie, cos she'll help me win. ha ha ha

anyway, that's like how life goes about isn't it. linking to bridge again : you never know who your patner is, and you guess who is that person, 25% you'll get it correct, 75% you'll get it wrong. when you got the wrong one, the right one would be secretly helping you, - friendship.
in the game, you think that he/she is your patner who is supposedly should be nice to you and help you with the game, but you might be wrong(?) he/she might be your opponent trying to make you lose. so, never be superficial, never judge a book by its cover. you'll lose out in the end.

i came to realise that the television gives incorrect information about bad people. notice all bad guys look bad from inside to out? from head to toe? people should start watching shows like ai sha 17. learn about how yi jing who looks so innocent can be so evil. oh anw, that show is nice :D
hmmm. . or watch ko one. de-stress yourself while watching how lei ke si who looks so si wen can be the legendary K.O 2 and deceive everyone except the clever ya se wang; the others remain stupid and get played by him. brainless people like wang da dong.
how you look totally depends on what your parents do in the process of giving birth to you, doesnt determine how your character is. there's many people i know who looks like a total crook, but are so beautifully nice on the inside. (:

-> had a super small "gathering" with a few seniors yesterday. a short happy period to clear my dull day. something really funny happened. ha ha, : sorry =]
today went to school to do some preparation for open house and someone's BIG DAY. we slacked a little, ok.. rather a lot. and tenghui taught us bridge. i won quite a few times! ha, CO's tradition.
Min Ru, someday, you should learn some card games. haha, starting with UNO. heeee xD

변장에 있는 천사

three cheers to car, steph, jerome !

had another singing session with car, steph, jerome and estelle.
and i kindof made the system " explode"
hahas,
so they changed another room for us,
which was so super nice of them. lol

sang sang and sang. while steph sleep sleep and sleep.
and jerome can sing sia. hahas,
nice.
had fun luh (:

tmr's graduation, byebye seniors!
but somehow, i very lazy to wake up so early tmr. ZzZzzZzzz

party after exams !

PARTY WORLD ROCKS!
i like the drinks(:
and the wireless mikes.
and most of all,
the people i went with!!
WAHAHA
thanks guys:D

today and tomorrow is holiday,
finally can have my long awaited rest.
and a whole loads of fun
so anyone wanna go out,
make it during the next four days
or next week im gonna die a horrible death.
bwahahaha
(:

Rants.

WAH, buay tahan lah!
i've been tolerating screams and shouts in my house ever since the exams started.
okay, ever since my brother was borned.
but that's not the point, the point is, I HAVING EXAMS LAH!!
f hell
he one exam den everyone in the house must help tutor him. or rather not, is do his homework for him.
so, if anyone were to come my house someday, the screamings from my house is certainly not mine.
hor min ru. hahaha
arghx
still dont get why my bro i such a pain in the ass
we must be enemies in our past past past past lives.
and i haven got over my spoilt doreamon
he claims he aint in the wrong again
yeah, one day he can just go rob a bank, and tell the cops that.
or he can kill someone (maybe me) and says he's right.
and get my parents to die for him or something.
__________________________________

physics paper was ok today,
despite the littlest bit of time i studied only,
so it's considered lucky (:
cheers.

i can't wait for EOYs to end.
although ending means getting back the papers with no regrets.
i hope so, cos dear yizhuang says i have the sulky face for all papers except english.
hahaha
but im gonna play.
there's so much things to plan and do.
outings, CHALETS! camps etc etc.
i miss my oldd pals, seniors and everyone, hopefully, there'll be time for all after the exams

and to the dear guys who gave such a superb perfomance ytd, don grieve for wad you dont have, be happy for wad you have. (: maybe it's a blessing in disguise, k? jiaqing, cheers :D

bye bye A1

geography was a disaster
my A1 is saying bye bye to me
i even forgot wad's the oxbow lake
that qns is the exact same one as mid years!
and i got full marks.
this time 0
arghs
pissed.

ok.. exams..
simply..
sucks big time!
a maths was a killer,
for me lah.
made my moral damn low
study so hard for a math
in the end also fail
klsajaflk;jsdjfglgj
den SS, i during exam suddenly forgot all the factors,
dont even know wad the questions wants.
12 marks gone.
bomb.

today's paper,
e math was duper easy
im an idiot, drank mocha at 10 in the night,
wanna sleep at 12 plus, cant fall asleep.
-.-
chem was hard.
or rather, i cannot remember anything,
no time to think
tmr's history and english
hist..
heck already.
since SS fail, den fail together.
wahaha

today paper 1s were pretty bad.
my eng is deproving, steep drop.
and i dont want it to drop!!
):
i want my ENG back!!!!!!!

studied at airport after that, stayed till 830
did quite a bit of a maths. (been doing it for weeks)
realised i dint bring home e math txtbk, panic
but aye, dont care le, dont think need also
gonna study at airport for the next few days
feel free to drop by and say hi. HA

if i fail my a maths again, im gonna kill myself.
studied so hard for a maths.
but i think my brain will always be like that- dumb
ok, so ytd was quite a moody day
i shall never be like that ever again
SWEAR
as you say, now is studies!
take care.
or i'll hate you for not doing so.

anw, all the best to ppl out there in their exams!
be it EOYs, O lvls or promos.
GOOD LUCK !

i just shitted a pile of black gooey substance.
hell pain.
it made my head hurt a great deal too.

this is a real funny convo with serene's dad
(im speaking like an ultra good girl) :

serene ; fat queen says:hi
JOane> ???? says:hello
serene ; fat queen says:how is yr study?
JOane> ???? says:wait, serene, dont bluff
serene ; fat queen says:i am serene's daddy
JOane> ???? says:eh.. ok..
JOane> ???? says:studies not bad
serene ; fat queen says:yes, do you rememer me?
JOane> ???? says:yea. haah
serene ; fat queen says:so how is yr school?
serene ; fat queen says:i think serene and you need to encourage each other more
serene ; fat queen says:i think sec 3 is not easy nowaday, what do you think?
JOane> ???? says:yah, we help each other
serene ; fat queen says:good, keep it up
JOane> ???? says:very stressed, they're like cramming a lot of things together
JOane> ???? says:cos o lvls early 3 weeks this year
serene ; fat queen says:i think she is happy to hv u as her friend as she is always happy after meeting you
serene ; fat queen says:i think friednship helps a lot to release stree
serene ; fat queen says:stress
JOane> ???? says:yah, i also happy to have her ar
serene ; fat queen says:because you two know wach other for many years from young age
JOane> ???? says:yah, easier to click
serene ; fat queen says:my dad doesnt wanna leave the c omp
serene ; fat queen says:he loves u
JOane> ???? says:L O L
serene ; fat queen says:grils should have close friend of same sex so that they can share things and all thing under the sun
JOane> ???? says:yeah, true
serene ; fat queen says:so u and she shall see each other more frequent that both of u could
serene ; fat queen says:encourage each other and help eact other
JOane> ???? says:ok, we'll try. cos we both also busy with our own studies and stuff
serene ; fat queen says:please come to our house during hoilday, ok?
JOane> ???? says:yeah, okay (:
serene ; fat queen says:u can stay with her if you like and allowed by your parents
JOane> ???? says:heh.. try. not really sure my parents will allow
serene ; fat queen says:take care and study hard and smart
serene ; fat queen says:but, results are not evertthing as i have epxeirenced it myslef JOane> ???? says:k, thank oyu
JOane> ???? says:you*
serene ; fat queen says:it is relationship, understanding, love, care, and many factors in life that are more importnant than just the resluts of exam
JOane> ???? says:yes, results are just superficial stepping tools
JOane> ???? says:i think.
serene ; fat queen says:a few more marks do not make you happier but good friendship last forever
serene ; fat queen says:start treaturing friends during shcool day helps you to meet ture friends JOane> ???? says:yeah ok, i will
serene ; fat queen says:ok, that's for all and see you soon
JOane> ???? says:kays, see you
serene ; fat queen says:bye

wierd isnt it.
and whenever i dont reply him, or reply slower, he will wait until i reply if not serene cant use the comp.
(i was on the phone with her)
never liked talking to adults.
im more of a kid person:D
okay,
AND MY STOMACH AND HEAD HURTS!!
HELP! ):

im feeling pretty irritated by people who think that he'she is always right.
even if we're doing pretty much the same stuff.
fck'g retarded.

okay and so im a bad girl today.
but so what, i dont wanna waste my time four hours in school
furthermore my mum allows and encourage it.
so, dont give me the "too bad"
cos it freaking piss me off

another congrats to the two singing gods.
hope i get to congratulate them again next week (:
2545/2546,
my block no. 254. brings them luck, although they dont need any.
also the Ar of Iodine.
and im stressed.
very.
pray hard that the exams would be over soon
and that the results would be satisfying
so that i can play hard, haven been doing that for the pass 9 months
changi fairy point chalet,
HERE I COME!
woohoo.

went to support jiaqing, javin and kai xiang today
woots,
jiaqing and javin got in
they were so good lah
but still, must improve to go further
haha, jiaqing on stage his hand still thinking of his erhu
and i dont think javin sings like fei yu qing
BUT, fei yu qing's voice is not bad
ha ha ha

okay, i seriously think i should stop playing around when EOYs is coming
I MISS SENIORS!! :D

seriously,
marcus kuek can stop paying so much attention to me
cos it really freaks me out
you know,
whenever i feel like slacking and not pay attention in his lesson
i cant
cos every now and then
he'll ask,
joane, understand?
or, joane iknow you're not listening, cos you're looking past me
or,
joane, need my help or not?
* look at him, shake head
@ really?
*shake head
@sure not
* once again shake head with a blank look ( dao look)
@ ok ar, you say one ar, here got 39 people minus cheryl see you say you don need my help one ar
* blink
nod
@ wlao, you really damn dao,
buay ta han lah
* breathe
@ snatch paper, start teaching

ok, i know it's good to be like that,
but sometimes, he could like concentrate on other students?
cos i bet there's a lot more that dont understand
and he flared up at us today(?)
mood swing
stressed by all the stupid topics they're teaching
and the exams that is coming in around 2 weeks time
frankly,
so when i reached home, i slept immediately
escape

went to macpherson primary the 2nd time for CIP
okay, this time although that guy is naughty and annoying too
but at least he was cute
he speak in this indian accent which was so hilarious. HAHA
and at least he didnt took my nametag and run around the place like a mad monkey like the pri 6 kid derrick
Damien was ok.. cool lah
he sings high school musical songs.
so cute
and gave me his msn, and asked whether i was coming back nexxt week
doubt so, i'd die
hahaha
bet angelina cant stand him, cos he pointed middle finger
crude lah, pri 5 only leh
the world's changing
shi jie bian le
if it was last time, i wouldnt even dare talk to those supposedly seniors.
and even worst, wont scold them in such a rude way

slacked today.
went through my com files of pictures
miss the past and seniors
and when i watched the the farwell ppt 2005 again
teared at the end
without music somemore,
imagine what will happen if sundial dreams is played again.
ok,
at least there are memories(?)
motto: live life to the fullest

- these few days are the times im having dangerously low self esteem

I deleted my previous post,
because i realised that the whole thing was written in terrible english.
HAHA
okay, so i tried to study this morning, but ended up using the com once again.
i'm useless aint I.
you know, sometimes the world is pretty fake.
an illusion of life is placed upon us, therefore all of us are superficial.
Don't you agree that you guys out there judge people on first impressions? on looks?
if that person is fat, ugly or gay, we'll all go: eeeeew
that's a sad thing, but it's true right.
i have pessimist thoughts about the world, pardon me.
but still, i appear to be optimist,
cracking dumb jokes, that sometimes have no link.
aye, who isnt like that.
who wants the world to know that they are sad? angry or depressed? ok, maybe those desporados for attention kind of people.
so yah, another thought, everyone thinks differently.
if you think that this is wrong, others might think that it's perfectly fine.
there's no perfect and accurate answer in life,
everyone thinks differently, and that's a fact.
if not, why do you think there are conflicts in this world?
the terrorists could just sit at home and watch the JOKER destroy batman
or watch BIRDMAN save the world.
yes, there is something called birdman, ask your father who is above 40.

enough of my crap?
yeah, i guess so.
BYE

okay,
so these few days have been "studying" real hard.
tried to lah, but was usual, to no avail
at serene's house now
came back from the airport, supposedly to send cindy off,
but yah, due to my stupidity.. :D
went to toa payoh yesterday
and sorry caroline! ):
congrats to jiaqing and javin.
and yah, nothing more to add
so fat, holidays have been really boring
yah.
yah
yah

sometimes i wonder, when you hear someone say someting, how many of them are real(?) do they speak for the sake of speaking, but just dont mean a word. i hate to keep pondering about lies, but i cant help it. i suck.
trying so hard to ignore your existance.
im gonna succeed, i tell you (:
BYE

teacher's day today (:
ok, im officially bored.
saw a few seniors in the last couple of days; joel tiffy fred javin yirui zilu and jerome (>)
yeah, really hope to have an outing or sth with seniors again
but i dont think it will be anytime soon.
haiy,
ok so im rotting at home
thanks to some retard who pangsehed me
idiots

something is everything.. everything is something and yet nothing

went back to gongshang in the end,
dint do anything much
but found out that somebody has become quite a female dog
please next time, keep your comments to yourself.
everyone is their own individual, dont judge people into two categories; people that are like you, and people that are unlike you.
and stop showing that you're jealous of people :D
please and thankyous

anw went to study with rene,
she can really concentrate on studying when she puts her mind to it
so unlike me
and she's cleverer too.
sad, and to think that i thought that chung cheng's homework are difficult enough
dunman high's much worst (duH)
yeah okay, studied till around 7 plus,
went to popular, shun bian wanted to drop by min ru's work place to say hi
but dint see her there.
haiy
yah den go went home after that
i think im having amnesia
cos i can't really remember much of my pri school days.
forgot a lot of people that i once knew
like, who's breynerd?! (dont even know it's spelt like that)
ok, anw, i dont really remember knowing him/
but yah, im supppose to have known him b4
sian,
i hope i remember those days
cos i think it's funny when you think back on your childhood days
how we do retarded stuff and all
know some stuff that,
some people that i actually have a liking for ( not in the way you think, just respected and dont dislike anymore) is quite despo . ya so, i'll learn to feel oblivious to everything

The tenacity and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties has become weakened. She feels overtaxed, worn out, and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground. She feels this adverse situation as an actual tangible pressure which is intolerable to her and from which she wants to escape, but she feels unable to make the necessary decision.

She's willing to participate and to allow herself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension. She clings to her belief that her hopes and ideas are realistic, but needs encouragement and reassurance. Applies very exacting standards to her choice of a partner and wants guarantees against loss or disappointment.

Suffering from pent-up overstimulation which threatends to discharge itself in an outburst of impulsive and impassioned behavior. The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. Her inability to enforce her will causes her to over-react in stubborn defiance and by assigning to others all the blame for her own failures.

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Stefthyname is your soulmate.

You truly love Car'line

You consider Min Ru your true friend.

You know that Serene is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Ivan for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Javin is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Cindy is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Fredrick is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Fredrick changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think JiaHong is shy and nonconfrontational. And that JiaHong has a hidden internet romance. (?)

got this from JamieTan :D

some are totally true.. some i just plain weird

HEROES
no, heroes are not superman etc etc.
heroes are those people who could finish their homework everyday without fail and understand everything the teacher says and doesnt go for tuition. and most importantly of all, doesnt fail any subjects.
me, on the other hand, is the villian.
i don't do any homework, don't understand a shit the teachers are saying and most importantly, fail almost every test. (e maths, a maths, physics, chem)
the only thing that is identical to a hero is i don't go for tuition.

Tests
Teachers are evil creatures who give us loads of tests and tells us 2 days before hand.
chinese test today, e maths and physics test on friday, a maths and geog test next tue, SS test next wed.
This explains why young people are having a higher percentage of depression cases and why singapore mistook that we're experiencing ageing population now; young adults are looking more like elderlies now with their strands of white hairs. especially those that are too poor to dye their hair black.

Sleeping hours
If i become a newsbroadcaster one day, everynight after the news at 11pm, i'll reckon everyone to sleep because people should have at least 8 hours of sleep everyday, especially students who have to wake up at 5 plus everyday.
If i become a scientist one day, i'll invent something to slow down the rotation of the earth so that each day will have 48 hours.
If i become a lawyer one day, i'll... scold the judge :D

went showtime yesterday
and saw nurul, jonathan and JOAKIM GOMEZ!
he's damn cute luh, cuter than on tv.
cos on tv, i dint really think he is VERY cute, just cute.
and the cute guy who can't really sing.
yeah, but he real live really damn super cute
no wonder he ain't out of singapore idol yet
CUTE !

was kinda sick during the recording,
plus the damn lights were shining directly at my eyes,
making it worst.
but it's really great that chung cheng got the highest marks
cos they really rocked,
and deserved it.
realised that being celebs are tough, cos of the irregular hours they work,
pity them. tsk.

good luck to rit later on for teenage icon (:

You Are 16% Happy

You know that there's more to life than how you've been living it. Life can be rough at times, but most of your unhappiness is self-inflicted.

How Happy Are You?

Your Chances of Being a Multimillionaire: 48%

You have a decent shot at being a multimillionaire. Surprised? You're confident and a hard worker. Keep it up!

Will You Be a Multimillionaire?

Your Lucky Underwear is Blue

You are caring and extroverted. You've made relationships your number one focus, and your lucky blue underwear can bring some balance to them. You thrive in one-on-one situations. You are a good listener and a natural born therapist. Sometimes you let the concerns of others become too important in your life, leading to stress and worry. If you want more balance, put on your blue underpants. They'll help you take care of yourself first.

What Color Is Your Lucky Underwear?

You Are 26% Selfish

In general, you are a very giving person who treats others very well. But at times, you insist on getting your way - when it matters most to you.

How Selfish Are You?

You Are 36% Lady

You tend to make up your rules of etiquette, throwing all conventions aside. And while you try to be a lady (sometimes), your behavior is often quite shocking.

Are You A Lady?

What Your White Outfit Means

You're a natural beauty - and you never let your fashion steal the show. You have a quiet confidence that you'll look great in almost anything. While you may feel understated, men are attracted to your mystery. Designer match: Gucci Signature accessory: A cashmere scarf

What Does Your Favorite Outfit Say About You?

You've Already Found Love!

Whether you know it or not, you've already found love And this guy could be it, so hold on to him! And if you're single, start looking more carefully at your guy friends It could be anyone you already know, so keep an open mind.

Where Will You Find Love?

see, im bored;

had a great walkout with car'line

really miss those times...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM (:
treated my family to pizza hut,
yeh, something's wrong with me today,
but let's just say.. today's my lucky day :D

happy sweet sixteen khangleng !

I'm tired now,
i'm tired everyday.
wanted to sleep in the afternoon,
but thanks to those indian men with hankerchief cutting grass,
i couldn't sleep.
SLEEEP

nights (x

the world's oxygen seems to be depleting,
couldn't really breathe properly in the morning
finally experienced pre-fainting.
but guess i just dint sleep the previous night
so yes, i just woke up

tmr's finally a dazu,
hope things will be alright?

ahh, im still tired.
anw, how come fiona xie's breast so big?
my mum say it's real.
hahaah,

cross country today, went with yizhuang, angelina and angel.
we walked the whole way, but my leg still hurts luh, cos it's brisk walking
then sat down in the sun, with dragon flies and grasshoppers,
having spastic talks with rachelko and abel.
hahaha, rk was funny. she's scared of grasshoppers.
anw, main point of this post is,
I GOT LOST TWICE TODAY
i know, RETARDED
but it's scary getting lost,
esp. if you're alone, in the night, looking around and you dont know where you are.
yes, i dint follow jerome and yizhuang's instructions well, and ended up at lavender finding a way home.

and so, i realised.
i relied a lot on others in the past.
and yeah, now too.
without them, im lost.
lost in everywhere; everything i do.
and somehow, these people are just... gone.
you know, just somewhere not around you
and you start feeling so very insecure and scared of the world.
yes, i'm feeling like that.