today is teacher's day! haha, the performance was so so cool lor. especially the teachers' performance. faizal is cool! but so stiff. haha, mr lam wahh... bang4 ar. haha., mr chye better. better i mean.. errr.. more vigorous. LOL

dragged until 11.30 plus plus pm. den go back sch for that party thingy, khoo messaged me say he sick, cannot come. go back class.. so little people.. no teachers come.. wth. =.= den must go back pri. sch in half and hr's time

by the time reach gongshang, the hall already black liaoz, no one inside, nothing. haiz.. pathetic when we were to reach so late. but nvm, saw same old people which i haven saw for really really long. jia jun have grown!! haha, but still quite short lur.. hehe. still cute cute de la. jing wen grow so chao tall! and zi zheng ley... haha, don find anythng different bout him. joshua is more guai lan with chek kai. arghx. jun ting grew taller. and i cant believe shan liang! he have grown... but he failed eng den now still in gongshang.. wl. last year still keep disturbing me when i went back to sch, now donno who liaos. hahz, .. nvm, i also donnoe him de, is he guai lan and chao2 me too much den know who is he de. so yah.

hmmmms.. so many people dint come. bryan donnoe why, xin zhi cos he needa stay back in school. peng ho, donnoe. haiz... hope to have a full class gathering one of the days. if not i will forget got who in the class de. lost the year bk le ney... hehee

went to tampines MAC eat. mrs chow treated us. she's still super nice and remembers each and everyone of us. so gd. den we pulled her to take neoprint with us. this time we treat. hahaz. she was like so fascinated with the neoprint machine and how we design it. lols. so cute. den go home lor.
sian la, wann go steamboat in the end no girls go. tot a lot of people say they want go de? wow.. all disappear.

im so addicted to dragon shows! actually... just love all these legendary strories, esp. dragons. remember that time i sleepwalked cos of the show? LOL! nvm, such stuffs better not elaborate.
-[bottom donnid to read, just releasing anger]



got back progress report card today. bleags.. inattentive and daydreaming in class sia.. results still ok la... but hor!, tt mother of mine don think so lehs. say wad.. A1 is 80 above. siaoo arh. 75 above already difficult to get liaos, ARGHX! no matter wad i do, wad kinda marks i get she also bu shuang de la. suan4 le la!, i don care liao lor. make it sound so easy. sick and tired of her voice. everything also must comment about, like she more clever liddat. only i don wann suan1 her hur.

somemore all our teachers gone mad le!, arghx! mrs tan so pek cek scold us. xie shern worse, he like nvr talk also kana her scold until so can3. and now comes to ambert khoo!, always tot he was nice, tho he don teach much. budden, he also siao with the other teachers. sit beside him do the WS, careless mistakes he use pen hit my knuckles. wl! come sch also must let ppl beat. oh yah, one more thing, he smells. cos he smokes. only teacher that remain hyper and funny is miss cheong. her expression of her face is always so funny.

tomorrow HM peeps having steamboat dinner... as usual... cannot go. mother la! everything is cos of her de. ARGHX! soon arh, i become like johnnycade or Dally. just cant talk to my family for 2 minutes with getting into quarrels and fights de. so, i'd rather hope i was dumb. maybe deaf also can, peace and quiet. why some people have such nice and cosy family ar? im so envious. aiya, to hell with everything la!

(washed out by everything. hate it)

WOOTS! yesterdat went to bball finals VS Raffles institution.
first impression: the guys from raffles were like so big sized and seemed so pro. every shot is go in de. den turn head look the other side of court.. errr.. big difference hur. haha
But we have super fast players. wahahas. so cool. colin, zhan hong, chee siang was gd. (: raffles have tt An zhen and Danny, we over there keep asking one of them to 5 penalty out. in the end zhan hong and danny out. wl, referee so bias de.! angry ! everytime is our side of the court have whistle de. arghx. den xie wei very ke lian. almost end of match that time, he fall down., pain until he held on to the floor. chao suay. final result,.... we won! heex. MVP is colin. he's good with the ball and super duper fast manz..

sec four prelims starts from today(tts wad mr soon said?) lolx. ok, jia you all sec fours! all the best wors!

my neck and back is breaking. ):
suay la, sprained my neck when im on the toilet bowl. =.=

i finally found out why car'line's reaction when jun yang lost was so BIG le. admit la.. his first song was like... errs.. erhm... not nice. but his second song so NICE!! his eyes so shiny and he acts like small boy boy de. hee. whereas for weilian... i certainly have no comments. not that i am against blind people, but just that he aint as good. and tho i don like shi xin hui, she sings better than kelly, but she out... the results just isnt wad we expected la. that's LIFE! ok, shall continue to hear their third song... BRB!

heard jun yang the third song! woots! so cool. hahas!, hope he and candyce will be together.
sho siann.... im without my phone. 0; hmmms.. ok, bye lur.. , nothing else to say. only....
i miss seniors!


Someone’s watching over me
Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
Took this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believeThat

I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over

Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me
Someone's watching over me

talked bout parents today durng english period.. den zong ye said he hate his parent... but,..... can he? like, how can you hate someone that made you? even if hate.... sure got one part of your heart is love de lor. noticed i cannot have 2 days in a row not crying at home cos of my family. i cry cos i love them rights?.. i think... and i care about how they treat me. like.., who wouldnt want our family to be like car'line liddat..sho nice lor, but family are like the closest we have, (tt's wad ppl say) and how come i don feel the bond? i lost my respect for my parents le, they don earn it anymore. tt's why today the report card, i rated myself "D" for respect for parents.
i think next time i will go to jail cos i become terrorist due to the anger within me and my brother will go to jail also cos he is FATTY and steals and might even kill somebody too. in jail, i see no one taking his side and will beat him back double he beats me. stupid fatty.
LIFE IS SO UNFAIR
maybe i should just hit the walls and die.
den everything shall end.

cancelled my previous post. hehe. cos i siann diao. (:
hah. ok, desperately wanna finish the zuo wen, but so diff lor. stupid title, stupid love story.

hmmms.. more and more people falling sick lur.. take care yea?. me still having flu... den whole day nose so red like clown, ppl still tot i cry. -.- reminds me of that time dazu... haiZ.. nvm, shan't think anymore. ^^

went tao payoh after school. went kidddy palace, sho cool lo. wahahs! like big kiddies. saw many many cutecute stuff there. and turtle cars!! kana hit my jerome,(as usual). ):

went car'line hse to goof around. wl!, she and xiaohei playing wrestling with bryan. so dotx! den screaming everywhere. hmmms.. those that saw my previous post, tts when they were "fighting". lol. cute hor. funny.

ok, i think i shall be a good girl lur,... if i don fall alseep halfway.. haha. it's like only 830 and im sleepy? nvm.. take care people!
CIAOZ!
-ishallwaittheonceinabluemoon- (:

when am i the bad girl you are refering?
which part of me do you see?
wad did i do to deserve all these?
head hurts, throat sore.
family? i don't seem to be part of it.
i don need lectures from anyone
whoever whatever
i don care

sick ): currently 37.8, just now quarelled with my tt mama den rised to 38.1. stupid stupid stupid. ARGH. sian ar, don have anyone crap here, so bored. i miss turtles! maybe i shall go sleep again.
3.26pm
realised something very stupid i have done.. -.- i put my wrong bday on my blog. ahhh, my head spoil liao sia. so blur. ok, zheng yi just told me that oral coming. so many tests and stuff. SIAN! and i have just told ning mao that there is sich a place called LT 3. hehe!

shall update lur. hahas. zhong zheng jing shen jian presentation was really sadd lorhs. thecrying was like domino effect. hahz... but overall, i can say that it was great, tho it took a very short time, short and sweet. (: before that waited very long for MD, we took some very lame photos. later shall view. hehe. HM people are such a fun batch. wahahas! today during calligraphy they took pics(but i dint) was drawing my picture. hahas. serious k! lol. den after that, me, carline and ivan started the pepsi cola game! woots! like old times.. -thinks- ): hahas. wl, end up not playing, is fighting for legs. -.- hahhaz!!!!
den went for lao ren yuan thing after school. ok, we were messy, but the whole prgramme was so long... not enough entertainment, so we had to impromptu. haiZ.. i think they very ke lian... don wann grow old leys.. i scared. 50 more years. haha. went totally crazy there jiu shi le. den after tt went MACS den walked to paya lebar MRT. ^^ den SLEEP!
and why must CCA block renovate?. i want our own cosy place where we cann go crazy and do whatever we want there. i'll miss it soso much. faster ok hor! don take too long the contractors! ok, now for the pictures, anw, i haven got the NDP pics done yet... my papa still haven send me. ):




iLOVEtoiletbowlseats!

supposingly to be a gang bang,but end up zong ye solo. xD

don really like a floweron my head. ):

we're imprisoned!!!

formal shot of the GIRLS.

xie shern(D24liulian)coming out of toilet bowl. 0_o

yeahhs! 3ofus. hahas


old folk's home!

swaying to the beat.

dang1 wo3 men2 tong3 zao4 yi4 qi3 (:simply love the 39ofUS! just one whole big family standing up for one another. will miss the times.. so must treasure!!turtles OYE!ye ren bang sup sup OYE!HM wang4 sui4!



bano is so cute. HIS FELIN!
2 pretty girls eh? the pole dance.LOL
these 2 pics are due to popular demands.! wahahhaas!!! (:

yesterdat went to padang for national day parade. wahahaas, go so many years le, this one is nicest. maybe cos it is nearer? hahas. cann see faces better. and so high tech sia, got satellite link to the different places at marina south, tampines and manymany. hahas. did the singapore wave around all the parts. cool hur. and i love the dance for this year the song. tho the song not really veery nice. but conclusion, taufik is like so much better den sylvester. no offence hur all sylvester fans. hahz. just think he sings better. ok, nvm, i not a fan of neither of them anyways. took many many pics, hmmmms.. shall upload them when i get the pics into the com. real nice. (:
after the parade, cos sit mrt back marhs, no space park car, so went to shopping centre shop shop a while. i just need to use the toilet ya noe. haha. den i saw DINO when i came out of the toilet. so scary lorhs! hmmmms.. so long never see him le. changed. one thing nvr change, his soso unique eyebrows. xD although quite a few times saw him at simei, but imagine face to face, phew.. think very nice to see an old friend after a long time. remember the old times... ^^ i love those innocent times!! woots.! ok, blog next time when i got the photos. CIAOZ!

today, music lesson was so funny. stupid zong ye don let me play the keyboard. den we were like fighting over the mouse, den he keep pressing quit. bleahhs. after that, he gave up den go play the drum. lols, xie shern came. dne we were like having a competition on the song BACH. manz, den song the tune very nice. hehes. den miss ang come scoldm say why i nvr with zongye den with xie shern. hey!, is he ownself don wann play de ma. ahhas, den the scene and tension was very funny. miss and come teach us play and see notes. i was like orh. den she ask me i know not.. den i say donnoe lor. ^^ den she teach, den i purposely go press wrong keys., in the end she angry lur hors, den i play properly lors. she was like.. HUH? whahas! A1 wors! hehee! den zong ye's turn. he was like blur diao. tot he got learn before de? -.- den he ask me teach him.. im not a good teacher. haha. en after that, xie shern came back. lols. was very fun durng music. (:
after school had the rehearsal for old folk's home. CBY went CRAZY with us!!



ooo... you touched my talalammmm... my ding ding dongLOL!!

the slaying of CBY? wahhas.

xie shern is professional dancer!SHAKE TO THE GROOVE!

Sheldon is dying.

me and the GREAT! woots.

cuddles for CBY!!HIP HIP HORRAY!

stephh and JO!the PINKY and the BRAIN!
yesterday went to library purpose is to study for science de, end up doingg lame stuffs lur. hahas. first is me, carline and zhengyi de, den bensng came, den eng swee they all one group of people came, den dj came. hahas, make until the new librarian keep asking us to keep quiet. i was keeping quiet! hehes, den i went to the door there testing see how noisy there were. wahahas! den got one guy.. donnoe which class de,come sit with us. brought with him a few garfield comics. haas. den i don wann study, start taking pictures. lols. cos how to studyy when yuu read one line, den got distracted must re-read?



Life is truely shit-like... [CREDITS TO STEPHANIE NG] hehe

time machine to the paST..CAROLINE! cutie wors! this is when caroline was so young.hees.

hey dude.

i give yuu a ZA!, and a HI YA!

SMILEz

ok.. that was lame.. nvm.. serves as an entertainment for shit lovers, caroline lovers(LOL!) and garfield lovers(fred). den after that, went to canteen eateat, talktalk pei zongye. andd after that, PFT. hahas. imagine lst year like so pin, osho nvr get any better, this year so slack cann get gold sia. tsktsk. i think boys de very ke lian.. very high expectations. girls is like so easy de. hehes- after that stayed vack for a little while to study science lorhs. (: (: (: (: (:today leys.. after school had this old folks' home rehearsal thingy. we sang songs together. hahas, sho cool. livened my mood up. cos teacher becoming lamer and lamer under the influence of us. feel so you3 cheng2 jiu4 wors! i seriously want some more englicsh songs, starting to find them sho nice now. after hearing "beautiful soul" by jesse MCcartney. so people, got any send me okies? please and thank yous! finally.. i hate gossipers. don wanna say it out right into your face cos i don wann things to get BIG. but today.. cant stand it anymore., i cant stand the thought that this thing is still going on and i just sit and do nothing, only to carry all the responsibility and blame. so please, before you even tell anyone anything, cann you please make it sure that the news yuu get from whomever is reliable? and reliable to what extend? because if it is not true, you will be causing other people's friendship. the best is, don gossip. as to anonymous who tagged my blog, whoever it is, gossips and back stabs aint the same yeah? maybe, i cant use such a strong word as hate, it's just don like the thought that maybe someplace, sometime, there will be rumours about you said.. myths you noe.. untrue stuffs.

LiFe Is A PeIcE oF SHIT - doggypoo!
monday is suay suay day.. arghx, so many eye witnesses laughing at my hair. bleags. ): first thing go into class, yi xiang saw.. den starting to laugh discreetly. (imagine) den ivan look at it.. den open eyes and mouth really really really WIDE! o.O hahas! he really shocked diaoo lorhs. hehes. ok, den bano they all start laughing. sobx. ok, most funny is ONG YI XIANG!, he laughed for the whole day lorhs!, today osho start laughing. wth... -.- and pls take note of "discreetly" (: hmmms.. im a new boy in 2 HM! whees!
ok, den now say after school. ARGHX! managed to avoid fred, den end up running in the grp of CO ppl!! jia qing say i pluck my hair de! OI! hmmmff. den went to 7-11 eat. hahas! saw estelli and clarence through the convex mirror. hehes. ^^ den when throwing the rubbish, fred come in! wl! OF ALL TIME! since he cut hair i nvr saw him le, whyy i just cut den he must pop out? LOL. boinngg booiingg!
today dazu.. quieter i guess. and as usual, went to plaay volleyball. hahas. den went home with huimin first cos gotta go home ler, father not fetching me. den funny!, huimin tot that an old man beside her was junhao, my nephew. whahaas! peng diaos. :D

long time nvr blog le. cos had headache.. head contracting. ): new mojo jojo blog! wahahas! im the MOJO JOJO! -evil laughs- hehes.
just went downstairs to cut my hair. eeeeeks. that grumpy guy go cut until i become so hairless. he like cut until very shuang liddat, keep don stop. arghx. i'd rather shave botak and wear a hat now!, at least i cann say i went for cancer treatment. heex. ok, this few days.. quite ok ok lorhs. actually, is i forgot wad happened lur. hahas. had jia xuan's farewell party. bye bye!, will miss the boys raping yuu. ^^ den xie shern is supposed to only target jia xuan! NOT ME! -.- smeareed cream on my face. reminds me of 1st march at jerome's class there. wahahas. currently reading a book on serial murder. whoo.. those are psycological freaks! so many ways of killing people de. bleags. gross..
yesterday had comm meeting den forgot to bring yao4 yao4, den head more pain. sobx. come back home, went to sleep. sleeping is fun. (: wasting of time fun. donnoe whyy... i just suddenly feel like pia-ing for streamings leys.. but hors, just cant find the right mood to do that. hehes. my ambition: working as CHICKY we saw at KFC! wahahas! jok jok. i don wanna have a big chicken butt. year is ending.. time passes very very fast ya noe.. but people have to leave some day rights? listening to the song "dang ni gu dan", <> makes a lot f sense rights? someday real soon.. the feeling that you have for someone will fade, and yuu will no longer miss him/her anymore. ^^ memories. memories.
i know when you guys leave the school for the better future, you'll always remember the times we had. hope we meet someday, 5 years down the road.. hope to see you on the streets, give me a welcoming hug kkies? MUACKX!

new girl coming to our class.. hmmmms.. hopes everything goes well barhs? my father's colleague's daughter., quite naughty? hahas. new member to our ye ren bang, hopes that she will fit right in, and hope things will remain the same. (: harmony rocks!
ok, wish yu guang(22) and bano(23) happy birthday wors!!
LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA
LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA
- that's the birthday song. hehes ^^

kinda dread monday to come? hahz....
ok, today sian-ing.., pia maths homework end up slacking? hehes. (:
and i thought that national library still under construction?!?! wahahas! so funny. ^^
and i love the lyrics of dang ni gu dang ni hui xiang qi shui. makes a lot of sense eh? no one cann be by your side forever. people will leave eventually. nothing is forever.

nothing special to blog about,
just wanna wish bryan a happy birthday!
wheees! 14 lur
but as usual, im still older than yuu! wahhas, (:
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you uuu
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

manz... i so miss my pri. school days.

i miss bryan's hilarious jokes
i miss gladwin's bian tai mind
i miss chek kai,.. errs.. not really, cos he is in IT! hehes.
i miss jia jun's cuteness
i miss cherie's cherriness
i miss the laugh and dimple on jazreen's face
i miss serene's lameness, *cold
i do not miss zi jun, p.s, see her everyday? hahas. (:
i miss estee's elegance
i miss shermaine's smile
i miss Leon's loud and always booming voice
i miss jun ting's pretty lil face
i miss xinning's sweetness
i miss jing wen's seriousness;
hope to se him around in simei
i miss Joshua's childish mindset, lols!
i miss syazana's chio face
i miss daphane's cow-moo-moo
i miss abegial's tom boyness
i miss eleen's lady like and soft spoken self
i miss phay key, the hua1 of 5.5/6.6
i miss the out-going hong kng yee kei
i miss xin zhi cos he have become lamer since 2003
i miss peng ho cos his house have manymany 5 cents
i miss hong yan and sharon cos they are my 38 bus mates
i miss Miss cheang cos she is my bestest teacher from changkat
others?.. not important, forgot lur. wahahs! sorry. ^^
i miss all those gongshangers tt i forgot the names!
including tt guy who kicked my and said a million times sorry;
and did manymany times the kick and run. arghx!
hahs, iLOVE you guys!!

i do not miss xin yi, cos she is in 2EP and CO!
i miss sheng long cos he is just a chao1 ji2 bian4 tai4 guy;
and playing zhong ruan too at maris stella too!
i miss dawn cos she is my bestest budd
i miss yin tak cos he is sho damn shuai hong konger;
and cos he have a cute name, duckmon
i miss xuan qing cos she is one cool girl
i miss fransisca cos i always see ryan in simei
i miss priscillia cos she is just simply cute
i miss thomas cos his house is big and nice
i miss all my changkat mates!!, tho i forgot some names. hehes. ;)

those were my childhood days... (=
sweet innocent childhood days
days when we spent the studying times on the playground
playing catching, truth or dare, and just simply laughing at jokes.
was so-so fun.
the best days of my life,
were to just spend it simple with yuu guys.

but now,
i miss the comforts of min ru mummy
i miss loud fredrick, and also the gentle side of him
i miss jun hong's cute laoda attitude
i miss kai xiang's morals and his love for CR *winks
i miss Jia qing's act cute and no link sentences
i miss Sylvia's ants and her lamford school
i miss joel's cool bumble bee, and love his new specs. lols!
i miss bee kwee's so-perfect voice, and samesame thinking as me
i miss tiffy's pretty face, and her so-lame jokes.
i miss michelle, our pokemon kite
i miss all the bestest seniors of the world
all unite at one place...
cchmsco!

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life have been so great hur? ask me how's life?. hmmmmms.. nth lorhs. like, how bad can it be? only putting up with people, having a duty roster at home, which consist only of me, getting caned, asked to leave the house. ok lorhs, bye bye. my definition of being a daughter isnt like this, so we have different definitions of daughters. yuu don like it, i cann jolly well don eat and eat the teng2 tiao2.wad's so big deal., the pain is only like.. counting to ten, and it's gone. so i'd rather get beaten den listen to your every command. i don follow my friend's way, i don follow your way, i don follow my family's way, i have my own way.! this whole world is bloody cruel!
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like.. no one actually really cares eh?.. that's wad i learnt coming to chung cheng.. entering into my secondary school life. nevermind.. there is still 2 and a half yrs.. i cann certainly live on with it. besides, .. time really is fast. see?.. like the sec 4s are leaving.. the ones who actually truly cared? hmmmms.. maybe barhs.. i not sure bout this life lur la.. nvm, i don care liaos. anyways, things happen to me, i learnt to sleep it off. im a piggy now ya noe. PIG. (:

just one word to say, WHATEVER. whatever to the things you say, cos it is just being self centred. pls, not everything in this world is about yourself. and yeahh.. gotta use this sentence that zongye said, see how you gonna survive in the society. maybe you will... but, i seriously think you wont. wait and see. i donnid those fake scripts that you have said. i don need that mask yuu wear on your face. pls be real. don think yourself so great and powerful as to rule the world, no, im on my own, so you cant control me.
yesterday had vball interclass, den won. obviously? steph, zy, yx were so pro. hahas. next tues have badminton de. how to cope with singles? cannot laa.. haiZ..
and still whatever k? say all you wann, cos im going to sink into my whatever world, and not care anymore. another ben low, so suckk. secondly, i hate gossips, whyy must people mae up wit stories? and even if it is true.. is there a need to tell? this is not shooting anyone, just think that people are like that.. all humans do gossip... must some are just excessive toking. too much saliva. conserve water laa! water is precious k?

first period today was home econs, wahh,... chao cool. there's a lizard trapped inside the blender, den zongye wanted to kill it by on-ing the on button!! ahh! siaoo de lorhs.. but see closely the lizard.. quite scary lehs.. cos the eyes sho big de, den the colour is like wanna rot lur.. yucks. den had to make fruit smoothy... eeeee.. very not nice to drink.. want to vomit sia.. bleags.
art period had this woman come teach us techniques of drawing? whahahas,!, the guys keep irritating her. basically., i don find their products fascinating.. maybe just the crayons a lil unusual.. hahas, but hmmmms.. normal things have their advantage too ya noe. tts wad i think lur. hahas.
den went to see miss chan durng recess for project work, on the way so kai ting, he was like smiling?? so weird!! lols!!! i see his face very funny osho. hahaha! missed one period of english, came back that time was asked to help see which group raise hand first cos they playing a game, den actually wann go up de but must help stephh cut the flyers, so asked zhiwen and caroline to go up. hahas.
had maths.. arghx! kai ting!! wad yuu toking?!!? nevermind.. in the middle of it then must go for the proj work booth thingy ler. ahahs, it's just slacking hur. den keep staying at tenghui and ivan tt booth play with the bell. hahas. den zongye tt booth.. got thing to eat de. hmm.. quote nice la. after that had prize taking, got popular voucher. the kinokuniya i got haven use yet sia.
after that had pastoral(free period) and den went coffee shop eat and den went home. the end (:

yesterday when to VJC for the open house thingy... hmmmm.. think go there like for fun der, hahas, in the end just sit at canteen there talk talk. hahas, went to geraldine's house help her make over? lols! after that sat bus to plaza sing.. wahhhh, the new route went such a big round, end up sitting the bus for one hour before reaching there. -.- sho hungry lur, went to burger king eat. den went to walk walk. geraldine and stephh bought a wallet! hahahs! they both osho very nice lur. den went to take neoprints.. wahhaas, the results came out.. den geraldine!! so ke lian.. hehes, shant elaborate.. lols. den sat mrt home with geraldine. siaoo man! i wann go home lur!, still wann go bugis. heyhey, don turn bad cos of us eh? hahas,
den today will be like.. hmmm.. quite busy? not now lur.. later.. i wann go cut hair. den needa do the banner thinggy for PW.. haiz, den must complete homework osho.. sian!
okies le, nth to blog ler, so blog ltr. CIAOZ! ;)

went to school today, but still a little headache. had maths test,... i factorisation all forgot lur, den the simultaneous equation last qns hors, i know how to do one! is last minute tot of how to do, den do halfway time's up le. suay lorh!!!! bleaghs...
ok, maths aint a nice subject. zhiwen! i just cant bringn myself to like this subject!, give me 1+1 den i noe. = 3 rights? hehe ^^
xie shern sprained his ankle because he had disfigured jay chou's face and cut it in pieces. retribution? wahahas. it swelled up like a dumpling. so ke lian. hahas. he tomorrow still have duty for the anniversary thingy. and his soccer competition is coming up lur? hahas, take cares of your leg lur laa! -.- lol. den walked out with him, he siaoo le la, leg liddat still cann talk so much.
slept too much yesterday, make me addicted to sleeping le. yawnz... wann sleep again. hahas. (: budden, better not, sleep too much sick again how? hahs,- weird logic?

sho siann... eh, min ru, yiqing, let's set new topic. hehes.. wad's our aim and goal for this life ne? wad do we really want to achieve deep within us? ahhas, sound so physological.. im tired of like going on life day by day... minute be minute and second by second... and taking every steps slowly as the days goes by. i want to get to JC.. den go university... but after that ley?.. like the world so big lur, after university,.. like nowhere to head to lur. hmmmmms... any thoughts to consider?

sick today... siann... head pain, stomach pain and leg pain. ARGHX!
tomorrow got maths test somemore, i gonna die lur. haiZ... see me die tomorrow people!! had a boring day at home.. sleep lorhs. sleep so much, will become pig der, den tried to do some maths, but headache. hhaas.
now doing again, ok, like shit cann!! ahhh!! i donnoe how to do!!!
so suck......

hmmmms... today cann be considered my unlucky+lucky day. first, no alarm clock, BUT! fortunately, i woke up at 5.48am! which is like., still ok ok, onlyy woke up 20 mins late. hai hao la. lolx. den went to sch, the but, too many inconsiderate ppl, the whole back side(pi gu) of the bus nvr move back. lucky thing is, 76 came soon after. hahas. after that, maths period, was panicking cos haven finish homework. den ambert khoo like keeping an eye on me lur. hehe. budden... he nvr scold, still ask me to ask him any questions. hahas!. guess he's a little bias to girls eh? cos he scolded chang long. and he did more than me? woots.

lunch time had with those usual crappy ye ren bang guys + caroline and geraldine. haha! xie shern will make a good housewife. so i do not support the proposition team that women should stay at home while men go to work. wahaha! he really knows how to bargain with the western food person, thus he can make a great house husband. this shows that not all men are useless in being a housewife. hahas! so LA-ME lur. f diaoo.. (: after that had dazu. we played dian shi zu ti ju. nice nice, the starting part play until very shuang., until the 4th page, which we seemed to all don have. den continue the 5th and 6th page blur lur. lolx.
hmmmmmms..... without sec 4s.. feel a little not dazu feeling. o man..just miss them so much. like missing something in the co room.. missing the atmosphere of sec 4s!! the aura the let out! hahahs.
den during break time, yuan yang and dian wen made be scared of the ruan room! arghx!! whyy make it so creepy and stuffs? -.- hahas. so dotx.
to me, dian wen supposed to be quiet and shy. hahas!! now, i see a different version of him le wors! haha.

anyways, to people who is having a headache or sick, take cares wors! cos i osho headache. hmmmmm.. like since last week lur. last wednesday. maybe cos of some pollutants in the atmosphere. HUMANS!, MUST CARE FOR OUR ENVIRONMENT, AND NOT MAKE PEOPLE LIKE ME SICK. wahhaas., actually no la, i headache is cos last wednesday have a massive thinking in my brain. hehe. ^^
bye ppl! and oh yah, got a really official envolope for the co badge collection of money. got a " GOVERNMENT SERVICE " stamp on it somemore. isnt it cool or what. hahas!
xiao zu zhang, collect on xiao zu kkies, next tuesday pass up lur! CYA!

wait wait! before leaving... i would like to say... hehe, i learned 1 thing from 2 person today! sometimes.. it's better to let things go..., must see whether it is worth it not. last time de me..., i will get sad i stuffs.., but now, hmmmms.. maybe you are right, there's like no one-sided love for LOVE this word yea? love for everything, may it be friends or whichever. who learned sec 2 lit the romeo and juliet shld noe the different types of love barhs. so yah... letting go is perhaps a good thing too. griping on to something too tightly will only cause the hurt to worsen. OK! that's my lesson for 5th JULY 2005!

yesterday night had this hacker hacked into my comp,... hmmmms... someone with the name of peter eh? nvm, fredrick called him mr hacker.
anyways, this mr hacker talked to xavier and fredrick. lame stuff lur. think he hack into ppl comp for fun joy peace laughter hur? siaoo guy.

today, went suntec macs to studyy.. with fred, laoda, zhiwen and jia qing. hahas!, was real fun and funny. but managed to do some work.. tho i did most MOST of my questions wrong? haha! hehe, people there shld noe wad i mean. ;) laughed at jiaqing's no link conversation. hahas, and their chinese spelling competition. den the french fries guarding game. LOL. so cute.
yeahh! iLOVEseniors! they so rock cann. even studying can be funFUNfun! hehe.!

reminder to xiao zu zhangs:
pls be reminded to collect CO badge money. for sec 1s who do not go for dazu yet, pls collect the money during xiaozu practices. pass it to me or jamie.
JOANE- 2HM (old block 2nd floor)
JAMIE- 2EP (old block 3rd floor)

though it have already been messaged to all xiao zu zhangs, just a reminder. thanks. (:

partly cos i nothing to do laas, hahas. ok, i go do homework le, CIAOZ!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIN RU~!
Mummy, your birthday is in 1 hour and 6 minutes, wish your greatest wish to come through yea? muackkx, iLOVEyou. really hope that time would just turn back.. but since it will not, let's just look forward and hope for the best. (=

trying so hard to be happy that im panting so hard now. forget it.., why did i even try. just regard all my previous stuffs as trash. bye.
(part 2)
Be happy!
You will grow into God’s greatest blessing, His highest pride.

Be happy!
Yesterday’s world wants you to enjoy its surrendering breath.Today’s world wants you to enjoy its surrendered breath. Tomorrow’s world wants you to enjoy its fulfilling breath.

Be happy!
Be happy in the morning with what you have.
Be happy in the evening with what you are.

Be happy!
Do not complain. Who complains? The blind beggar in you. When you complain, you dance in the mire of ignorance.When you do not complain, all conditions of the world are at your feet, and God gives you a new name: aspiration. Aspiration is the supreme wealth in the world of light and delight.

Be happy!

Do you want never to be poor? Then be happy.
Do you want ever to be great? Then be happy.

Be happy!

You will get what you like most.
You will get what you like best.

Be happy!

God sees in you His aspiring creation. His transforming realization, His illumining revelation, and His fulfilling manifestation.

Be happy!
Be happy!
God sees in you another God. God sees you as another God. God sees you and Him as one.
yays! iLOVE this. ^ the aobove one (:
(part 1)
A person is never happy except at the price of some ignorance.
yeahh... i guess this is very true yea? knowing everything is not always a good thing. that's why innocent is bliss as many people say. the more i try to think about stuffs... try to find out the reason... when i get the answer, am i even happier than before? only cause me a terrible headache. i'm trying to ignore some things, the lesser i know.., the lesser my heart hurts.

happened to chance by this. hahas, just being stupid. but seriously, the quote makes a lot of sense. yesterday was a very slack day. first period is common test period marhs.. tot that ambert khoo is coming for it, ahh!, specimen paper three. hahas. in the end he never come, and i finished my maths lur. hehe.^_^ after that was caligraphy. we went to see the exhibit. nth to see osho.. hahz.. (: the next period of a period without teacher again. miss cheong never come i think. den me, carline, ivan, vincent, sheldon, played hai dai tonalment. wahahas! played ji kou pa osho. very lame laas, like childhood memories. played vampire vampire osho? LOL! den played heart attack,. always win but in the end, the one hu gets to beat is not me. bleag! ok, when we got sian of playing all these lur, watched ivan and sheldon play the donnoe wad game laas.. hahas. watch them very funny. see how they lose money. wahahas.
recess ler! we HM ye ren bang go canteen early a few minutes, den everyone queued for the noodles stall. den cann compare and contrast marhs, the other stalls don have business. seriously think that our canteen food sucks now laas, yucks. im not being racist here, jus don like their colour, and furthermore, I DON LIKE THEIR FOOD. so giam siam osho. i see other ppl eat the western food... sho tiny tiny chicken, and egg so thin. like toilet paper liddat. tok tok tok..
so fast assemly le., den hear the person tok, den went to LT for the prize taking rehearsal. SIAN! cannot go parkway lur..
hmmmms.... got a cup and kinokuniya voucher for prize. ok laas, hai guo de qu. hehe
since lunch time was toking to sheng long through sms.. hmmmms.., think he too much sms to use ler, make my sms bao4. and he is really like jiaqing? sho lame crappy and no link. hahaS!

the whole world is rotating the wrong way.... pls turn backk..
p.s[x] all these are all ytd.. (:
just like realised the date is ytd's date.. hmmms.... hahz.. ok lorhs. (= hehe^^

today is certainly not a good day. first period pe, sat in the rain for quite some time. den ran in the rain. sho "cool"? after running in the rain, had to do pushups, skipping and sit ups. hurhur. den went back to class.. haiZ.. a lot of thinking.. a lot a lot a lot... maybe.., should just heck care and forget about the past and continue with life.., forget all the gd times too.., in case i just cant bear to let go.
den after that, stuff myself with disgusting food. donnoe why, just so shuang to eat things tt i don like when i aint in the mood. hahas. den chilli was refreshing too! (:
won tt cans thingy poster thing. 3rd onlyy. stupid annversary, cant be bothered, this yr anniversary thing so lame.. -.- went meet khang leng and others after schh. ate some disgusting food again and went for comm meeting. really hope that we new comm cann bring co to greater heights. the ex comm really did a good job, thanks! love ya!
after tt.. walked out of sch with jamie. bought the book to record things, den went home. on the bus to mrt to my house was real terrible..., very giddy, den keep knocking into people on the mrt.. cos very shaky. went home.. immediately wet to lie on bed.. wahh.. si bei shuang... but head chao pain and giddy. wanna vomit. vomitted too. den now, just shouted at my mother. so, ambert khoo called her to say i haven finished homework.. nth happened.. now she don care liaoz.. i piaing my maths.. she ask me write compo for my brother? wad the fuck! ok ok.. gotta relax ler,.. if not my brain really will explode.. cant stand it.

ok!, happy happy happy again! (: smilex!

seriously don wanna be feel sad, must appear cheerful always. hehe ^^ sleeping time is always my best hours of the day. yeahh!, nitez ppl!

today went schh.. den forgot wad happened ler. lolx. just noe today got debate.. den, the grps dint prepare.., hope our grp will do better. den had photo taking for our class. whee! bprrowed tie from chek kai, kinda screwed it up? lolx! so sorry wor! had co photo taking. quite busy with the blazers and co badge.. sundries!! xie shern!, not sunkist orange! -.- so dotx. haa. den went for geog, den went kallang macs...played with tigers! hahas, den rewrote the co badge people's name, cos just now write until damn damn ugly lorhs, i see le very bu shun yan. lolx.did like one qns of maths den go home.. haha. when go home tt time, crap a lot at the bus stop, cos the bus very slow den come. hahas! "chair for two!" cos no table (: hahas! sat same bus with tiffy and jia qing... errrs.. kinda., yuu noe wad. hahas. den there's this old woman in front of me laughing... donnoe whyy osho, maybe it is cos i was like slowly moving further and further away from them? hahz!,, see tt old woman, veh veh funny. wahaha!

im like a very deep thinker in all sorts of things. may it be my own post.. like bringing pen and paper... or personal problems... i think so deeply that.. sometimes, it might not be a good thing. almost every second... im like thinking about things happening around me. im such a paranoid., think and fear... and feel scared... joane, stop thinking! ahh...
haiZ.. i feeling like i lost something very precious to me yeahh... still think innocent is bliss, maybe not?.. but before i noe all these stuff, i wont feel that sad and stuff barhs..maybe i shouldnt feel this way.. but donnoe whyy.. when i learned bout all these stuff, i like.. weird weird feeling... a little tingling in my chest. and it aint nice. aiya.. i don wann tok bout sad things here ler, CHANGE TOPIC!

now trying to do maths specimen paper 2 part 2.had an allience with ivan, he help me do specimen paper 3, den i finish paper 1 and 2. ambert khoo said wad, by hook or by crook, i have to finish it. and this is considered by crook? (= hehe. tok to ivan for quite a long time barhs... a lot of stuffs laa.. budden... not those tt are really crucial ;) i vov never to say out my problems or wad i feel and stuffs to anyone again.., must be happy always. one bad experience is bad enough. ^^
ok, i on with the specimen paper 2 lerr. people out there, do take care! joane is off with the wind! puff!, byee!

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!

It's the first day of school! so happy to see my fellow ye ren bang today. (: hehe, same old lame crappy class. reached school,.. as usual, see people pia ing homework. budden, i cant be bothered ler, since cannot do finish, i osho don wann copy, wad's the use of copying? hahas, den kana scolded by lots and lots f teachers,.. haiZ... siann!! hahas, den ambert khoo ask me to finish my maths tml by hook or by crook. how to by crook? everyone pass up ler! cannot copy ler! lols! don care le laa... donnoe wad i doing here to slack too (= heex!, just find today was really fun laughing at our class jokers again. really nice to be backk in our hm class once again!
durng lunch break went immediately to meet up with jamie. brought a perper and pen.., cos like everytime must ask them to write name and blazer they took der. hhaa. den spent my whole lunch break there, helping ppl get their blazers. went to the comm room first, cos got a lot of blazers and ties there.
after school went to bugis with stephh and carline! yeahh! i love my fellow girls! took neoprints and the outcome was nice! really nice. very long nvr hang out with them liaos. (= went to macs first to eat. den took 2 times of neoprints. hahas.
first day gone., awaiting for tml lerr! if im not wrong, tml have two photo takings? class photo and co photo. !!! yeahhh!
today was fun overall... just something upsetted me just now.. haiZ..
ok, shant say anymore!, homework time!! ciaoz!

part2
everything is over so soon.. happy things don last long.. it will at last end. comm camp is over.., co camp is over.. lets end this with a smile, and go to school like b4 tomorrow. i will miss the holidays.., where i have spent it with OAC, comm camp and co camp..., iLOVEit. den.. one month of holidays.. just like that.. GONE. so fast and swift. homework not completed.. haven studied... but, i truely enjoyed myself with people i hold so dear to my heart. i still have a lot of homework left undone.. tomorrow sure diedie. hahas, hope that i could spend the 2nd half of the year wisely.., streaming ler, joane must jia you ler. sec 4s osho pia le k? JIA YOU! now must continue life like how it used to be liaos, tho no more sec 4s by our side, i truely believe that they will be in our hearts till the end of time. they haven left chung cheng yet.. they left cchmsCO... no more seeing them crapping during dazu.. and no more walking, running out of school. no more roti prata.. no more hor fun and stuffs. hahas! really really miss those times.. donnoe wad happened.. just... flashback on those times.. remember us eating dinner together... remember the doreamon in fredrick's house... remember the magic tricks.... remember roller blading.., kbox... taking neoprints... just walking aimlessly... holding hands and running out... i remember those lovely messages i received... and how i first got to know these wonderful seniors.. first impression.... gradually become friends... and now.. bonded so close together. i've said this a lot of times, but i gonna say this. iLOVEseniors! hope that i will always be in ur hearts and if ever you were to feel alone or in need of someone to tok to, i am always here with my gigantic ears. (= we aint just juniors and seniors anymore... we are a family. and i love this huge CO family! thanks for giving me warmth and security.
lots of love.,
jojo
part1
tomorrow hols over ler... like so fast one.. cann still remember 1st of june., den just like that.. it is already the last day of holidays ler. donnoe wad will happen tomorrow osho.. sitting arrangement.., homework problems.. haven do finish.. den at lunch break must give out blazers.., haiZ.. hope nothing goes wrong, cos still got a lot of blazers in the comm room.. -pray- hard for everything to go smoothly. don want to have problems cropped up. (:
guess i'll blog later barhs.. now must do homework ler.. like did so little bit only? feeling so guilty. hahas. ciaoz!

yesterday had a blasting time with the seniors! had a junior-senior lunch at swensons. we were like havoc in swensons, den went to bugis take neoprints and stuffs... thanks ppl!, i love you guys!

budden... life is always unfair.., God gave me these short moments of happiness.... and gave me those long hours of torture at home. set my mind to doing maths, but end up washing stuffs and quarreling with my mother. hur hur... really wanna know how many people are like me. thsis morning... was asked to wash again.. very irritating cann! den, asked to write down where i went throughout the week, wad time i come home, with who.. wow!, PRISON LIFE! my this 14 yrs of life are being controlled every second.. i cant stand it anymore... furthur more.., it is ruining my life! a few minutes ago... phone kana snatched off., kept, hidden in an unknown place.... my poor phone suffering.. ARGHX!i wann back my precious phone! ahh! really really wanna scream out loud...(which i already did), i donnoe wad's the liffe at home for... it is so waste of my life... i cant live my life to the fullest cos of these people who have the same blood as me... who gave me my life... and so.. claiming that it is their life.... they control it. so im a IT. saying that i did not do homework, force me to stay at home.. and when i did...., surprisingly not expected to do any homework..., instead, asked to do all those SHIT stuffs!! yuu noe wad? i call it shit! all those shit things i have to do all day, i don see my brothers doing it. i have to say it, FUCK THIS WHOLE SHIT OUT OF MY LIFE!

i will miss the seniors so so so much... they gave me the security of a family.... the security i lacked.. and they gave me such many memories of joy..., they were the ones i treasure most... i just cant imagine life without them..., i don want to get use to the life without them...

current homework status: 14 qns of maths specimen paper one

Just came back from CO camp.., very tired.. YAWNZ... it was fun laas, but the FUNNEST thing was night walk and the TOUCHIEST thing is farewell party.. sobx sobx.. I SIMPLY LOVE SENIORS SO SO SO MUCH!
night walk went with sheng long, hui min and shi wee. this time the was much much scarier den last yr der, and it was super duper nice. (:
notice i dint really elaborate on this camp unlike the others... cos.. haiZ.. as yuu all noe.. really have no mood to try to remember every single thing that happened during camp. hehe..
farewell party... cried... expected... so very very sad,,, just that indescripable feeling.... a feeling that made me think a lot.. and when i say a lot, i meant a lot a lot. lot until it is all in a mess right now up in my head,.. ROJAK! lolx. and it aint a nice feeling.. I LOVE YUU GUYS SO MANYMANY...
just wanna dedicate this sth like a poem?, to the sec 4s lorhs.. den it is like.. more than sentences than poem laas, but... it conveys the message to them better.. :

Goodbye to you my senior friends
I hope that I have earned a place in your hearts for you not to forget me Thou I might just be a Freshmen I hope that you have learned something from me as I have from you
I hope that I well see you in the future and when we do I will greet you with a smile and a hug and I hope you well too
I am happy to have been part of your life even though it was just a year but it felt like forever to me and I feel I have made you friends for life
I hope u feel the same about me
So wipe off those tears for it is not farewell forever because you never know what the future brings
I will try my very best to do so too, but for now, I have to say,
You guys were the best seniors i can ever have.
Just love you manymany. (:

i really hope that now sec 4s, yuu guys leave us now to pursue o'levels results, and sincerely pray that all of you will achieve your goal. simply MUST jia you k? for me.. i will pia for my streaming too,.. let's do it together, may the hearts of us juniors and yuu seniors be always bonded together.. and beating as one.

iLOVEseniors!
We have grown so much together,
throughout these dramatic years.
now we must say goodbye,
to our seniors so very dear.
don't let our goodbyes mean forever,
let them just mean a while.
let this all end without a tear,
let it end with a smile.
we have been through so much these years,
forever the memories we will share,
of the fun, sad, crazy things we did,
with the ones that truly care.
don't treat this like a REAL goodbye,
don't let this be a loss,
of the seniors we have grown to love so much,
throughout these years of chaos.
forever our friendships will remain,
each others hearts we will always keep.
we have done so much together,
we have seen each other weep
we have to go on living, though
different paths we shall take.
we have to go on living,
no matter how much our hearts will ache.
we must go on with our own lives now,
though it might bring a tear.
just don't ever forget the juniors you have,
the ones so far and yet so near.
i know just what your thinking,
this all just isn't fair,
but no matter how far away from each other,
we will still always be there.
no matter how hard we try,
eventually we must part.
even though saying goodbye to each other,
will leave a scar across my heart.
throughout the years we each accomplished,
our dreams and worst fears.
because we believed in each other,
this is where it all started,
and this is where it ends.
now we all must say goodbye,
to our fun-loving and caring seniors.
GRADUATION SONG - BY VITAMIN C
And so we talked all night the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a diffent track
And if you got something to say you need to say
you better say it right now cos you dont have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I din't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
Alll the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
We little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
I keep,I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la..
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la...
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought this this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
this song made me cry during primary six graduation party... now., im having the exact same feeling.

no more a free girl..

part 2-
came backk home. was at the studio of some sort. hahas!, so cool. veh funny osho. den mama scolded me, father gave me a warning and a look, and my phone is at risk now. haiZ... went online.. errrs, fredrick, i not siansian.. don really will bring my mood to msn de. really, maybe cos of my nick den yuu think i sian eh?.. but, don cos of tt say don wann tok to me k? muacks,
really hope my parents will understand me one day.., the life im living now... ot's not so simple ya know.., it isnt always about what they want.. so.. yah.., really hope that it will happen soon.
tommorow ppl! wann go watch the soccer match? tell me tell me quick k? need ppl pei me. hahaz! (: jia you guys! win for chung cheng! pee pee! go gogo!
part 1-
a new skin.. haiZ... 5 ppl now at sentosa.. having fun.. and me..?, rotting here. dint wanna quarrel with my mother cos i want to go sentosa., cos i noe, it aint a MUST thing. i have to first complete things that are my responsibilities. but most of the time.., i cant even be granted to do those things that are within wad im supposed to. promises to friends and stuff.. and.. my own moral values.. principles.. i wann to make promises to my parents too, to study and stuff like that.... but..., it doesnt gives me the rights to shake off my responsibilities and break promises and assurance i have already made to other people.
they want me to study... but is locking me at home with my FEROCIOUS brother gnna make me study? it's gonna make me hate this house more.! everything in my life seems so stupid now.., cos it aint solely mjne anymore... im sharing it now. with my family. i noe tey wann me to make a right choice, for streaming this yr.. but... this aint the right way.i don take hard treatment. and i noe my limits.
to conclude everything, everything sucks now... let life goes on with them controlling.. TAKE OVER ME.. im no longer myself anymore.. goodbye world.. im not the Jo ppl call me... just ling hui en, joane. the name my parents gave me from the day i saw the first ray of light..
i hope to ppl out there... don associate me with other ppl... i just wanna be an individual., just me. thanks. (:

hard time persuading my parents to let me go for committee camp. it is totally worth it. cos is was a total blast! fun fun and more fun! the chalet itself was big and clean. very nice and cold. hahas,
had some ice breakers' games at first in the hall. we played wacko!jun hong was so cute when he ran about in the circle we formed. the next game was 007! this game very fun, as in, the way ppl shout. hahas, veh funny. (: the 2 person beside be was joy and fredrick. haaaz, ... fredrick, jia qing and kai xiang very funny jiu shi le, the way they AHHH~! we had dinner after this game lerr,. was telling lame jokes and no sense-ing at the table. hahas! fredrick is NO SENSE, sylvia is LAMEFORD. lolx, crappy, really must appreciate crappy peeps around me. (=and im glad that some ppl like me for wad i am, my character and stuffs. yays.,! yuu guys rocks.
went into the chalet wad watched tv. onlyy managed to go in to see the THE END in love at dolphin bay onlyy. so pathetic. haiz, i wanna see! but no regrets, cos i enjoyed myself with those crappy ppl. hahas! watched jue2 dui4 super star. laugh until peng, seriously think that kai xiang, bee kwee cann sing much much better, they hsld go join! what a pity... tsk tsk.. fredrick and jun hong den switched off the tv and we proceeded to pass the parcel! there are forfeits written on the wrapping paper, let me recall... the many forfeits we were supposed to do. :D lolx! kai xiang and zhiwen had to sing a duet song, sylvia, clarence, fredrick had to have whip cream on their faces, joy had to eat lemon, khang leng and sylvia had to kiss ppl, jia qing had to pose for the camera. that's all i cann remember barhs. heex,.... and i had to run around the circle and act like super woman? so dots! but ON mah.. haaz... think i look like maniac sia.
we then had a very serious talk... supposed to sayy wad we feel about co.. haiz.... really hope that i cann do a good job of zong wu,... new comm jia you! i listen to they one by one talk.. haiz.... den finally... it is the sec 4s.... the more i hear.. the harder i tried to stop myself from cryingg..will really miss them a lot.... as what fredrick sayy.... some of us are like their babys., they watch us mature slowly... from a young and innocent sec 1.. to sec 2 and 3.., a more independant child. and to me... they really are people that guide us along this path of secondary schh. we will continue to grow.... and make yuu guys proud of us, and make everyone be proud of CO.
second day was outdoor activities. went to the beach to play H2O first. i fell down while running away from darren! ahh! hahas, not really pain laa... wann continue to play, bee kwee don allow. and im not a small rebel! i just wanna play! LOL. she wash with water lerr den pain derr. OUCH. after a while.. I CANN PLAY LER! hahas,! den, darren chased me again. -.- hahaz! so funny.
we then played those apple games. god! 1st one was to eat the apple.... den our face had to get so close? as in... yuu see someone face so close hors, obviously will start laughing de rights? normal reaction cann. hahas, den i rather go close my eyes. =D lolx den after we finished the apple..... i almost vomited.. cos it is veh disgusting laa... ppl saliva everywhere. but we finished it! yeah! so proud of our group manz! anyways, our group is me, liang yu, michelle, kai xiang and clarence. the other apple game was to eat the apple from a pail of water. veh diff sia. pl like pauline went all out! pro! three cheers for pauline! although she is not our grp de. hahas, after that we played water bomb. kai xiang was our untouchable!! filled up and tied the bags. started playing! had to protect kai xiang.... but, my leg kana so much salt water.. buay tahan.. den came out.. chao pain cann.. haiz.... i wann play de.. sobx sobx... went to wash my leg, bee kwee pei me. b4 that helped jh they all take photo. den when i came back with bee kwee, the game was over. den took pics together. SMILE!
we went for our lunch and bath after that. i,michelle,xiang feng, zhiyin and sylvia went to eat first. at burger king. eat le den we went back to chalet. we had admin stuff to do next, had a little tok with yiqing. rest assure., i and jamie will do our job de. (: =winks=
we den went to get jia qing to come chat with us, if not he will feel left out de. jia qing!, yuu are not left out k?it doesnt matter whether yuu are in comm not, it is whether yuu did do ur part to help CO, and yuu did more den ur part.
walked to the beach again to play captain's ball. old comm VS new comm!! first round we lost.... forgot wad score le. we tried, but this proves that lao3 de4 la4. hahas! rested for a while, waited for yiqing and kaixiang for water. thanks manz! den drink le, donnoe whyy... my leg suddenly seems more "sour" den just now on the field. sat on the bench.... partly cos of other things laas, but ya..... dint wanted to continue playing at first.. but decided to play again, dint wanna be a spoilsport. ran for a while.. but legs getting heavier and heavier sia, so stand at jia qing there. to guard? hahas. occasionally going a little forward. in the end, they still won. haaahaaaaas.
walked backk to chalet. den saw the gransazers rehearsal. so cute! for children to see one, to think jia qing osho will watch derr. so cute! den waited for the barbeque, wanted to help... but cos a whole grp of us volunteered, they don wann us to help. we ahd our new comm meeting instead. to discuss wad is needed to be done loh. halfway thru, tiffany asked for help, me, jamie and joy, the three Js? went to help prepare the hot dogs and crab sticks. den quickly got backk to the room. soon after.. it's eating time! heex. i dint really go bbq.. cos like so many ppl crowdng le, don wanna make it crowdier. haas, is there even such a word?
watch tv.. den night time lerr... was sleepy.. tried not to sleep.. but still slept. hahas, was watching fredrick they all play bridge., but still cant figure out how to play. sometime, teach me k? (:
haiz..... last camp morning.. played taidi. and finished the food. bye seniors..... thanks to tiffany beekwee and min ru for organising this comm camp for us. it was really really fun. and as fred says, without our coorperation, this wouldnt have been done smoothly, and brought everyone so much fun! so,... concludes with... WE ROCKS!
went to eat at white sands and den went bugis to take neoprint. slept on the mrt on the way home and almost missed the station! was like.... jerked up from my seat and ran out of the door. so paiseh... but lucky, i was the only one on tt double seated seat. hahas....

camp, the YE REN BANG!
first day:
ice breaker games. got a super nice instructor, FRADDY. lame crap "handsome" fraddy. did the flag, learnt cheerz and den played simon says! hahas!, won lorhs! he so play cheat! bleaghs!
ok, den went to play candle wall, not nice laas. haas.. quite boring, a few of us played with the fire and leaves, and most importantly, SLACK!
after that went to sleep rights, not xi guan, nvr sleep. sat below the hut to enjoy the breeze. instructor jeremy veh funny, like pink panther liddat when me, stephh and carline downstairs. in the end, managed to sleep a lil,....
2nd day:
low elements games. the wall thing, dint climb, cos shoe too gigantic, wahahs. den station games. we made it! 59 seconds! yays! squat down good idea rights? *winks* hahas!
we slacked quite a lot laas, cos everyone tired and un-enthu. fraddy gave attitude, cos stephh and zhiwen late. but he soon ok liaos. den tt girl, donnoe how to spell her name, wrote journal? "it's fun toking to yuu" " i hope fraddy remembers my name" "instructor fraddy'd mood is getting better" hhas! veh funny. even fraddy got goosebumps! his reaction chao funny can?!!! wahhahas!
had kayaking. the water was dirty and cold, den the mud is soo... muddy? ahas! but fun lorhs! sat at the last kayak, den got to play the game to run across. so nice! loved it manz, haas, den kayak around. wl! fraddy splash the water..... i whole body chao wet cann. eyes inside osho got in. den the other instructors osho. hahas! they so cute when we all form one circle and then they splash water at us. AHH! water war!
den had this kidnap thing at night, jing ya kana captured. hahs! she so ke lian sia, mosquito bites.had a lot of running, did 10 stations b4 we got our first key?? claps! hahaz.
we stayed at canteen hear Fraddy and Ping Wei crapp. wahh! chao ke ai lorhs. they are 2 childish people!
den went to sleep, cos they have briefing or something. haas,
heard tt i sleep talk? wow!,.. so cool. hahas,
3rd day:
high elements!! ahh! first obstacle tho it is the easiest one, i veh scared. cos like, first time, den i first one somemore., not really sure wad to do lors. haas, den the second one is the log and tyre. yays!! competed it! yays! proud of myself, of me someone hu is scared of heights. heex!
den rock climbing, slacked, hear jokes from rudi and fraddy. wahh, rudi bian tai! disgusting mind of his, and he is still an instructor sia!! teach students dirty stuffss?!?
hahs, so cute he. he rock climbing so pro sia, monkey. (= den the challenge pole, stephh kana fraddy pick, was scary den she cry..... was so high, who wouldnt be scared?
ok, den camp fire..! fun fun and more fun! hyper liaoz,
when fraddy briefing us at the end of the day that time, he cried...... haiz, was sitting in front of him... den noticed he wasnt fake crying, eyes red red derr. so shocked ley!! ahh! so gan dong! den he was like.. shhh., den asked him izit real, he just nod head. haiz, haiz... DON CRY! haas. he's so nice.
den we went to bathe, den at canteen toked to fraddy again. bla bla bla. crap again lorhs, miss him real lots, BUT!, i am human with no feelings, so nvr cry. (= hahaas!,
lucly we took pictures, for memories. YE REN BANG ROCKS!
4th day:
just cleared up the place lorh, at tt time i veh siann, so nvr do anything. have to say bye bye lerr. BYE BYE! (=
maybe tok to yuu on msn or anythingg. whee`s will miss them? yeahh.. crapp and jokes. but,........ ppl around me are osho to crappy and funny, must treasure... yayss! yuu guys rocks! those tt really cares, and not putting up a fake front. iLOVE yuu!

durng this camp maybe still got a lot of things, maybe i forgot liaos, hahas, but fun laas.
onlyy sometimes.... veh siann cos of some reasons laa, haaas,budden, destined to be like that, LIFE'S JUST LIKE THAT., so... must take it lorh... nth i cann do osho.

tomorrow camp liaoz. arghx, have this like trek pants?, or wadever, material so thick, wann me hot until die arh?? arghx, wth.... yuu are not the one wearing, or cos yuu cann tok wad cock osho cann rights?! seriously think yuu have simply no brains. arghx!! fcuk cann, good thing is go camp. 4 days 3 nights donnid see yuu liaos. HOORAY! yays!
im rejoicing., see??
after camps still got problems.... haiz, problems everyday, like when will it stop?
just hope OAC will be fun lorh, oh yaa, i waited outside the hse for 3 plus hours!! ahh! so suck.
firstly, toked to carline, den min ru, den ltr ivan, den yiqing. hahas!
ok, officially in ANGRY mode now. cant stand everything, SO DON IRRITATE ME! all living things are annoying creatures, including me, and esp. my family.FUCK THEM! IT'S ALWAYS MY FAULT, EVERY SINGLE THING, EVEN WHEN IT IS NOT, EVEN WHEN IM LIKE THE VICTIM? IM AT FAULT TOO! i have to like show respect to him even tho it is him who is at fault? so wad if he is 3 yrs older den me? SO?! i don give a fckg damn!
den whyy do yuu look at me onlyy by my results?, is it the onlyy way to prove im capable? isnt there other ways that im good at? if only academic is important to yuu, den in the future, am i onlyy destined to be a worker and not a boss? isnt leadership as important? whyy cant yuu all just think it in our way? yuu said if yuu all had known i was like that, yuu wouldnt catch be when im about to fall when i was just borned? ok, fine, i will just die when i first started to even see the light. good, den i wouldnt see such a cruel world..

decided to change skin.. just have that urge to do so.... been doingg like thinkings and thinkings and more thinkings.... in the end... decided seriously.. that persistence wont do both party good. just like.... accept my fate?.....? i just feel so unwanted cann?>...... so rubbish.. like trash prepared to throw away any time.. trash that doesnt even have a trash bag to go to.
hope yuu guys have fun lorh, no more comments.
haiz, just wanna thank those tht really really treated me as their friend. i just cant read people's thoughts., so, i wouldnt know wad others are thinking, but for just these few people.., i really cann feel the sincerity in our friendship. love yuu guys!
cann ppl who think that they are m friends pls tell me if it is true?. i just don know...... everyone...... just... vanished... just like that. MAGIC?. nahz...... guess not.. so tag yea?? pretty pls?. i wann to have that security there..
actually........ it is just these few ppl that make up my life... my happiness.... and also the very few people that made up my tears., but.. it really cann change the way i feel about life... the very fragile word.., i cannot stand the harsh cruelty of the world anymore..... and., one of the person i love most in the world... is faintly.., drifting further and further.


everything so suck noww! FCUK the whole world cann?! firstly, the above thing, secondly, my bloody family thing, and thirdly!, my studies! ARGHX! wad the hell is happening to my so perfect life last time?? why is everything so RUINED now?!
friends; -- oh ya, yuu are my friend, ooo yahh,,,,...... but, real? true? friends are the onlyy people i cann like rely on?... the only things that could make me happy is like being with them?.... WOW!, now?. forget it,.... useless. useless to continue anymore..
family; errrrs.... like when do i ever was close with them? yah! i remember! when my lil brother wasnt borned yet!! claps claps! i still cann remember! everyday, i would hear my mother screaming at me, my brother framing me, and my elder brother adding salt and pepper! i tried to hold my anger, fearing my father would flare up if i shout backk or argued. BUT I HAVE MY LIMITS! and when this volcano in my head erupts, i'll be the giant's lunch.
todayy, im stuck with my brother at home thanks to some great peeps, and the whole dayy, he have been calling my mother and complaining about my every single movement. thanks a lot guys.
studies; ok... it isnt the worse of people...... and it aint bad osho..... but it did drop?. besides, everyhting is like so fuck to me now... even this? nothing much others to sayy.
im so gonna go ANTI LIFE. i hate everything now~! wad the hell! arghx! FUCK! fuck! FCUK!fcuk! ahhh!!
and to those who is having problems too, let's set up anti life club. I HATE LIFE! whyy did i ever come into this world for?. fun, joy peace and laughter. for the sake and pleasure of my parents?

yesterday went to this concert at VCH... hmmms hmmmms..... a lot of opera singers?. hahas, ok, den me, jun hong and bee kwee did something really errs... guilty. (= heex,
went to eat, den jun hong treated me to the cream puff. yumm! was nice leyy. thankyews! den went to mos burger. den went home. go home den eat liaos, lucky i dint like eaT?. if not will be chao full liaos. PIGG. haa, oh yah, and jun hong called himself lao xiao. LOL,
arghx, sun burnt den face red like monkey butt.- so disgusting!! eeeeek.!
TODAY, woke up in the morning by my mother's screaming. den watched tv plus use com. actually wann to pratise maths on workbook derr, but cannot find the bk. so used the assessment that u found in my room. think is fredrick's one? shld be, den tried to do... but donnoe how. hahas, i think after exam den blank liaos. I DON EVEN REMEMBER HOW TO DO STANDARD FORM!! ahh!! diedie!, wednesday retest lerr. den did 2 pathetic qns and went to sleep. my brother's fault!! on song for me to hear! make my sleep. hahas,
den wake up like... errs.. hours later??. haiz...donnoe how to survive liaos. wad's wrong with my stupid brain?? donnoe how to solve simple qns?? especially factorisation!! HELP! seriously in need of some brain wash.

the week is like veh busy barhs.... the next week osho... camps lor.
tml have dazu.
wed got retest and xiaozu and briefing.
thurs got retest and proj work
friday to monday have sec 2 OAC
tues have election
wed to thurs have comm camp IF get into comm

that's all barhs... (=

anyways, happy belated birthday to sheldon. frankly, i thought tt today was 29JUNE, guess im lagg one day eh? HAPPY FOURTEENTH BIRTHDAY!
yuu are 14 already!! happy? hahas, but still, im ur JIE! too bad! heex,
grow up and don read diaries in class!!! LOL

went sentosa todayy!
hahas, was ok laas, quite fun. the most nice part was the skin colour i have now! hahas!!! sun burnt laas. (=
we went to play beach volley ball. hahs, donoe how to play. den we went to swim?? hahas! they one by one kana pushed in by jerome, den wo zi2 hao3 faster run in myself before he come push sia., don wann to drink the salt water or get any into my eyes. LOL
stayed in there for quite some time, den we went kayaking! hahaz! nice nice.. sorry laas yixiang. heex.. ;)
then jerome go chase us. wann to push us down into the water. in the end when we got backk to carline and stephh there, i kana pushed down. =( bleggs! but hors, fan1 chuan2 was nice osho, not so badd.
we then stayyed there for some time again den went to change and eat. actually wann play pool derr, but tt person so longg. den sit mrt go home ler lorh.
hope my skin will remain this colour leyy. veh nice. hahas, but, it will soon peel off barhs.

holidays lerr,,... donnoe how to spend it osho. the first and second week will be completely packed.really wanna relax durng this time... but still must studyy for maths retest and do homework!! arghx. hahas, shld really buck up le barhs........ don feel good lazing around osho. the last few days was post exam activities and excursions. siann-ded. i wanna sayy a huge jia you to myself sia..... JIA YOU! ....
and jia you to ppl out there who is having olevels chinese. all the best on mondayy yea?. KAMBATE!!

and to those who are stressed up and sadd......(esp. to yuu), don sadd lerr yea?. remember... somewhere at the corner of the world... there is someone made specially for yuu, may it be friends or wadever.., there will be that special someone, who will always be true to yuu. i know i will. (:

todayy woke up early for proj work. den in the end so BLUR, cann get lost while goingg to serangoon. SO STUPID!! ahh!! -.-' den sat bus to jolyn's house, den realised it was in ALJUNIED>>???? NING MAO!!! TRICKED ME AND YIJUN AR! LOL! hahas, den did proj work lor. hahhas,
after that went woodlands meet yiqing. pei me eat. wahahahas, i nth to do marh, don wanna go home so early. cos sure got disaster derr. prevention is better than cure yuu noe. (=
ate at LONG JOHN's, en went shopping? hahahas, causeway point ih NICE! , big and NICE! hahahahs, went to the top most floor, den slowly go down. complicated place. den we took NEOPRINTS! hahahahas! long time since the last neoprint taken. heex, den yiqing bought shoes., is tt considered shoes? hhaas, overall the dayy was considered ok laas, besides the part getting lost and tricked! LOL tok to yiqing was nice, =D
tomorrow got proj work presentation, sort of? hahas, at 2pm, hope cann make it for CO laas. (x
tomorrow is gonna be a brand new dayy, and i haven did my zuo wen, maths and maths correction. COOL>> nahz, .... seriously have post examinations mood. and been busy too. BUCK UP JOANE! blegg!

changed skin lerr. yuu noe, i think everytime i change skin is according to my mood derr. hahas, matches with my mood. (:
todayy boring day laas, just some packing for the camp, did it like so early? hahas, cos i scared i will lazy next time, and dint wanna do any last minute packing. later forget to buy things. den went to compass point cos my MAMA wann buy things. go metro. aiya, went everywhere jiu shi lerr. hahas, den saw kai xiang's hse? cos i saw the shi2 zi4 lu4 kou3 where i got lost the other time. heex.
bought slippers? LOL den went to eat PIZZA!! hahas, dint noe it was my parents' aniversary. hahahas. 22 MAY! =D
pizza was nice nice and more nice. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MUMMY DADDY!!!!!
tomorrow having project work at jolyn's house. haiz, project work. glad that there is progress in it laas. proud of ourselves! (x means tml must wake up at 7.30am!!!! ahh! so early. YAWNZZ>>>

i think a lot of things in LIFE is very unpredictable derr. one moment, yuu might think that everything around yuu is perfect, and when yuu are enjoying, things are slowly taken away from yuu little by little every second.
and sometimes, when yuu are feeling really down, some special people will just come into your LIFE like that. and things seems complete again. that's whyy my mind is always in a mess almost every minute. things just jumble up, not knowing wad will happen next in my LIFE. ahhas, donnoe whyy i suddenly thought of this, but just to tell people out there, CHERISH THE ONES YUU HAVE RIGHT NOW. THERE'S NO GAURENTEE EVERYTHING WILL REMAIN THE SAME AND IN THIS WONDERFUL DREAM OF OURS. AT LEAST WE HAVE OUT MEMORIES STILL WITHIN OUR HEARTS.

hope life is going on well with yuu guys out there..... i now treat life totally differently. seeing life from another aspect. i gues, it's better for me. =D thankyes to those who were with me all the while, after all these...... i've grown up. yes, tts it. different philosphical view. but, maybe.... it's just keeping everything inside of me....... and doesnt show.. it really proves to be better. i think? confused.. not sure osho. mustnt think of it now. im just going to do my best in everything i do. DEBATE AND PROJECT WORK! JIA YOU JOANE!

in caroline's house now,. rushed to toa payoh after the interview. kinda did quite badly barhs. they asked wad im going to deal with the blazer problem, at that time, i donnoe wad's the price of the blazer, i don noe the whole situation properly, so i cant give an answer, guess that's bad barhs, kept quiet. desperately thinking of an answer. bee kwee asked me go home think. hahahas! i walked out of the room, den found out that the blazer is 100 plus bucks. if it really isnt entirely the person that lost the blazer fault, i think he should just pay just majority and not all? haiz, seriously donnoe. don really noe the whole idea of the post. time management? am i really willing to spend time? they asked that, i gave the answer yes. and i meant it. YES. altho it was in a smiley face when i have tt answer, but it doesnt mean that im not serious. just trying to comfort myself of not to be scared. cant really answer in these kinda formal things. too FORMAL, too much stress and pressure liaos.

these few days working hard on project work. spend so much time in com lab. tired. donnoe whyy, i shld be happy to be able to use the computer even in school, but, i just feel tired. tired. exam stress and project stress. somemore got one more debate coming up. i really wanna get this done right and well. ben low!! banana, i noe yuu look down on us, i noe tt yuu sayy we cant win. i know we cant from the start, cos yuu ppl have bano, xie shern and aaron wong, i admit tt they are better than us and me, but yuu are not. so don smirk. i'll try my very best to win. and ivan, pangseh den later come backk again, since yuu don wann den don wann laas, in the first place den don ask me join yuu. haiz, but nvm le barhs, it;s over, i don wanna bear grudges. i just hope that we will have have a fruitful shou1 huo4 after our hard work.

new comm coming up, no matter what, i will support whoever goes into it derr. because i noe self confidence isnt enough, how others think what and how yuu are also plays a part. so yah, make CO a better place! (:
later going shopping with MAMA, buying stuff for camp barhs, if not for i wanna buy things hors, i den don wann go with her ne! i still wann complete this debate thing neh! LOL
that's all for now le, wanna type a lot one, cos i think caroline's keyboard loud loud one, veh nice to type! hahas, and im not slacking!!! waiting forr brainstorming ideas onlyy. they still writing. ok, buh bye! iLOVEyuupeeps. everyone out there that is true towards me, muackx

ARGHX!!! MY BROTHER SUCKS CANN?!?!!! FRAME ME 3 TIMES PLUS HIT ME WITH THE BOOK. CHAO PAIN LOR!! ahh!!!! hate him!!!!!!

tired from proj work lerr....... tired from everything lerrr. brain, faster stop working, faster indulge into a deep sleep forever....

got backk maths paper... haiz, disappointedd barhs. but, (: SMILE! i noe i cann improve, and i will! yes, possitive thinkings. =)
went to give jun hong backk the key. den he and fred pei me go open door. den took ruan. after that went proj work lerr. do until tired and hungry. yawnzz. my stomach's growlingg. den Miss Chan so good!! go bring us chocolates and biscuits!! yay! haas, did until 6pm liddat. wahh, by tt time went all weak liaos, still must carry RUAN, tiredd sia. haiz,.


sweet sorrow..

My tears are not of loss
But of time too quickly gone.
I miss our days together
Even while they're going on.
I savor odd, sweet moments
When you laugh or when you smile,
Nostalgic for your presence
Though you're with me all the while.

Strange how fantasy
Can wander in and out at will,
Looking back from somewhere
That is just beyond a hill.

And so when once you leave
You will not leave me alone,
For I will have you with me
Long, long after you are gone.

got backk maths paper... haiz, disappointedd barhs. but, (: SMILE! i noe i cann improve, and i will! yes, possitive thinkings. =)
went to give jun hong backk the key. den he and fred pei me go open door. den took ruan. after that went proj work lerr. do until tired and hungry. yawnzz. my stomach's growlingg. den Miss Chan so good!! go bring us chocolates and biscuits!! yay! haas, did until 6pm liddat. wahh, by tt time went all weak liaos, still must carry RUAN, tiredd sia. haiz,.


sweet sorrow..
(to my loved ones)

My tears are not of loss
But of time too quickly gone.
I miss our days together
Even while they're going on.
I savor odd, sweet moments
When you laugh or when you smile,
Nostalgic for your presence
Though you're with me all the while.

Strange how fantasy
Can wander in and out at will,
Looking back from somewhere
That is just beyond a hill.

And so when once you leave
You will not leave me alone,
For I will have you with me
Long, long after you are gone.